bye2 2010~

this post might be a little bit emotional..
well 2010 really changed my life. a lot of things happen. good..bad.. everything.
honestly, im so sad to leave 2010 and afraid with upcoming 2011.
this is the year where i met him and this is also the year where i lost him.
i really gonna miss diz year. and the memories we created will never be forget.
this is sooo difficult, to start a new life. i dont even knw where to begin.
but i trust my self. i knw i can do it.
lets flash back some memories i create in 2010.
this is some of the day that i will never forget in my life :

- being student in sem 3 is quite difficult for me. there is a moment where i feel rejected. feel like im all alone. but thanx god, i still got my best friends and family tat always support me. thanx!!
- haha.. diz is really funny. tah mcm mane ley stuck dgn sorg mamat yg sooo not in 2 me. this is the bigest mistake ever!
-  25/05..well  i will never forget diz! this is the day where i met him. diz is the day where my life changed!
- 17/06 its my birthday.. first tyme i celebrate it with him. first tyme in PD with him. first tyme jugak g fun fair. ok i'll start cying. hehe
- diz year jugak la gado ngn my best fren, fida.. xpnh gado selame ni. but thnx god, we doing good now. she's in paris while i writing this. miss u dear!
- i create so many memories diz year..yea..br prasan. g putrajaya tgk lampu.. g mkn ayam penyet. PD plak dh mcm kampung. i really gonna miss all of diz.
- ayah said, 2011 akn jadi tahun yg akn mngubah segale nye. i really hope so. and im looking forward tat.
- 2010, ak ambek risiko yg sgt besar thn ni. yg ak sndri xpnh trpk pown.
- 2010 jugak 'go with the flow' is my theme of my life.heehe.. only the dead fish go with the flow. remember??

i will never forget the memories tat i had created. never.and i hav no regret. this is the decision i made. but hopefully this experience will help me to move forword next year. to be a better person! all brand new sya.. gud luck..

for 2011..here i come! please be kind with me! hehe..
and hopefully this 2011 will bring a prosperity, will give me more better life and better person. InsyaALLAH!

its a NEW Day!!

hey there!!!
wats ur plan 2day?? me? i dont really hav 1 yet. supposed i hav a date with iman. but due 2 some problem, i cancled it last minute.
i wake up too early 2day, at 1.30pm. hahaha..
arini my house akn d pnuhi dgn sdare mare.. wa..mriah nye!!
best2!!
2morrow?? myb nk kuar ngn vc. but still in plan.
so those who r still thinking wat 2 do, dont just sit n think 2 much. lets hit the road baby!! lets ended 2010 with lots of fun n enjoy ur self!!! xoxo muahhh!!!

game OVER~

u just dont hav faith on me ryte?
u test me coz u dont trust me.
u put me in ur game
but im tired with all this game
n im done with it
game OVER.

r u ok?

u acting weird recently. r u ok hunny? d something yg mngangu pkirn u ker? i dont knw wat 2 do anymore. i just want na best 4 u. sorry if i being a childish. sorry if i make things even more complicated.
just to let u knw, i will always there 4 u. i will always love u no matter what. tats my promise.

i HATE you!!!!!!

ble kite tgh mrh, kite mmg akn ckp bnde tanpe pk. n now, im doing it. i write thing based on wat i feel now. which i feel ANGRY!
ak yg ptt mrh, asal lak dia nk mrh ak. bodoh kn dia? xphm ak lgsong. xley tolak ansur cikit pown. xyah couple r klu mcm ni. nk ikot ckp dia je. xadil btol! e... tensyen nye!!!!
ape ak wat smue slh! smue xbtol! smue nye kne ikot waktu dia. asyik2 game!!!! sy bkn mngungkit! sy meluahkan pe yg sy rase!!!!!! argh!!!!! geram smpi rase nk nages.
e... mcm mane r ak ley suke dia. bodoh nye ak!!!!
ssh ke nk ckp sorry??!! really hate u now!

bodoh!

yes..STUPID! done.

SabAR~

sy x pnybr ke eh?? dia slalu suh sy sabar. sy rase, sy dh cukup bersabar dh. kdg2 d jugak sy rase sy ni out of control. but xd la slalu out of control. just ble dh lame xjmp dia, sy jd bnyk ragam. kdg2 sy sndri pening ngn dri sy. hehe.. ape pown. sy happy arini.
2 je nk ckp. dada~

cant sleep~

thinking bout him. i cant sleep. i try but i just cant. he called but girl's voice at the end of it. im blur~ who im talking 2? is tat her? or him? mls nk pk. biar la. pnt.

sy RINDU awk!!

awk..ble nk blk??
smlm sy tnggu seharian. sy xsure awk abis exam ari selase o rabu. so sy tnggu je smlm. tp awk xblk. then arini pown sy mcm tertnggu2 if awk blk. klu smlm xblk mean arini la kn? tnggu ni pnt kn.. yg pelik nye sy ley tnggu berminggu tp xley nk tnggu 1 ari pown. cpt la blk, sy nk hug awk! pnt dh tgk jam..lmbt lagi nk mlm. u slalu smpi mlm. cpt la blk..sy tnggu ni!!

aLOha~

hello there!
recently x bnyk post kn? xrase nk post anything. rase nk lepak kat umah n berangan!
huhu..
bnyk event, project n activiti yg xdpt nk join due to some problem tat i cant avoid. so sooorrry guys!
nxt tyme myb...
skang ni my bf nga exam.. so sy sndri d subang. mia pulak still kat jb, n myb back next week. so next week will be super duper bz with the activity. hav date wit nana, vc,n some other frens n not to forget my beloved bf kne tmn g shopping! sales hunny...hehe
k la gtg.. da~

im crazy ?!#@%@

OMG...

i mish my hunny bie soo much!

keep thinking about him recently. rase lemas pulak. haha

minggu ni agak2 dia blk x? agak2 klu jerit dr sini, dia dgr x?? nk tnye, ' hun...!! u blk x minggu ni?? ' hehe..

blk la syg...i rindu u..

ok sy gler kn? klu ckp mcm 2 kat dia, mesty dia ckp, 'agak r..'

sy mmg gler! gler kan awk!

klu la sy boley dgr suare awk skrg ni.. skejap pown jd la. janji x drag.

hehe.. mesty u snyum n ckp dlm ati, ' xde mkne nye..'

hehe..

u.. i SYG u! sgt2! klu u dpt dgr degupan jantung i skrg ni.

jantung i berdegup sgt laju. rase klu u d kt dpn i, i nk lari n dpt kn u!

rase mcm nk hug n xnk lepas.

rase mcm nk bg 1 dunia, ' he is mine!! '

hari2 pown rase in love dgn u.

u ni jht. u really blow my heart away!

come back soon hunny coz i miss u. i cant stand it anymore!

ahhh..really hope tat u r here~

glaD...

tah knp arini, ak rase ak sgt syg dia. br ak sdr wlu pown kitorg xmcm owg laen tp ak happy knl dia. ak rase glad tat im part of him. wlu pown kdg2 ak kne bergelut dgn prasaan cemburu n kata2 owg laen, tp ak xnk ambek peduli, sbb yg pnting ak happy.
wlu pown ak kurang pasti sejauh mane ak boleh melangkah kdpn dgn dia, tp ak th, langkah yg ak ambil d temani oleh dia,same ada kami hanye mampu selangkah kehadapan atau terus melangkah hingga ke akhir nye.
ak th rmi yg pelik n mrh dgn kptusan ak. rmi yg pk ak ni tgh bwt keje giler. ye ak admit, ak mmg tgh bwt keje gler. ak juga telah membukti kn pd owg rmi yg love mmg blind. bkn ak xpnh cube tok lps kn, tpu la klu ak kate 'i dont mind'. frankly speaking, i do mind.. but i just dont want to think of it.
ad 1 reason knp ak rase ak boley trus kn..sbb nye is tanpe ak sedar, dh 6 bln hubungan kami.. n sepanjang 6 bln 2, kebahagian yg ak rase lebih dr derita. itu mnunjuk kn yg ak bhagia dgn dia wlu pown dlm situasi mcm ni.bkn nye ak xpnh bercinta sblm ni, tp ak pnh hadapi idop dlm relationship yg mane ak lebih merasakn derita dr gembira. myb sbb 2 ak rase kali ni ak boleh melangkah kehadapan dgn dia.
kdg2 mmg la ak rase kecik ati ttg bnyk pkre, tp dia sgt pndi tok bwt ak lupe smue 2. dia mmg suke bwt ak nages smpi ak rase dia sbnrnye segaje je.hehe
mcm dh merepek jauh je ak ni kn. myb sbb ak rindu kat dia kot. mcm2 kejutan nk wat tok dia. xsbr nye!
pape pown to my hunny bie, i love u.. n u knw it better.


 

fEVeR aGAiN!

I lose my voice

headache

fever

~tq~

dOnT bE jELoUS...

Talking to my self..
Owh..miss him so much. but in the same time mad bcoz of jelous. wat 2 do yea. come on sya. u hav made it this far. dont look back. just move forward. can i stand it? i really hope so. difficult when u really love him ryte? dont think to much sya. argh..it just a picture. okey sya? trust ur self. trust him. u knw he love u. u knw it better. hav faith on tat.
dont wait. remember he said? when u wait, u felt it longer compared when u just let it happen. if he is yours, he definitly will b yours! hav faith on ur self. i knw u had try ur best.i knw. n he knw it too.
i knw u love him. everyone can see it. but somehow, u hav to love ur self 2. myb u should let him do wat he should. myb u should just live ur life, n just be happy with it.
dont mad sya, dont jelous, be cool..chill...

ok.. she's ok now. hehe

TAG..

Someone tag me. so i just do it and anyone tat read this may tag ur self k? hehe

1. Apa benda penting dalam hidup anda?

- bende ryte? if MONEY r categorized as a things, i will answer it as the most important thing! haha

2. Benda terakhir yang anda beli guna duit anda?

- movie ticket..br je td

3. Di manakah tempat anda akan melangsungkan perkahwinan anda dan apakah temanya nanti?

- xpnh pk pown.

4. Adakah anda sedang bercinta sekarang?

-YUP!

5. Berapa lama anda akan mencintai kekasih anda?

- I will love him as long as my heart beating

6. Di mana anda selalu jumpa kekasih anda?

-xth nk jwb mcm mane.tp kami slalu hang out kat 'tmpt yg menenagkan'...huhu

7. Novel/majalah/buku terakhir dibeli?

- lame dh xbeli. rasenye last, hurm.... 10 Reasons Not To Fall in Love

8. Siapakah nama penuh anda?

-xpyh tnye la.

9. Antara mak dengan ayah yang mana anda lebih mesra?

-xth la..

10. Namakan orang yang anda betul2x nak jumpa dalam hidup anda?

- xde la. xpnh pk.

11. Adakah anda basuh baju anda sendiri?

- mesin kan ad... laen la klu rosak

12. Di manakah tempat anda betul2x nak pergi?

- i want to go to ROME!!

13. Pilih satu "peluk" atau "cium"?

-bak kate bf sy, sy tamak. so i want both!!

14. Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag.

- she is nice. hope she will get wat she want in her life!

15. Lima benda yang disayangi dalam hidup anda.

- bende? bnde 2 things yeh?
hurm... honestly mcm xd la syg things sgt. biase2 je.

16. Lagu yang anda suka dan selalu dengar.

-bnyk sgt. one of it is, just the way u are

17. Bila tarikh lahir dan kt maner korang sambut tahun lepas?

-17th JUN. thn lepas xingt la.tp klu thn ni kat PD dgn bf tersayang!!

18. Rakan blogger yg anda nk tag?

- sape2 yg nk jwb. jwb la...xpkse

glaD tat wE r back 2 nORmaL

ingt x dlu d ckp. sy n my best fren name fida xrpt mcm dlu. tp arini sy happy. sy hang out dgn dia. we had a movie, had a beautiful lunch at full house. sy rase everything dh back 2 normal and im sooo glad! rase happy je sbb i got fida, mia, nana,vc and of coz my lovely hunny bie.mcm my life perfect.
thanks GOD!

tears fall down...

he always said tat i am the drama queen. he also said tat i am 'cengeng'. hehe...
n sometimes, sy rase dia saje je nk bwt saye nages. dia suke tgk sy nages kot.
tp sejak akhir2 ni dia mmg kerap bwt sy nages.sy jd malu... sbb t dia th sy syg
dia sgt2.
smlm dia blk..n mlm td sy dmm. smpi kne kjot ibu. myb sy pnt keje. yea...
sy mmg lemah n lembik. even skrg ni pown sy tgh baring smbil type.
ble sakit, sy akn ingt dia. rindu plak kat dia. ape la yg dia tgh bwt agak nye.
kple tgh berdenyut. tp lemas plak asyik tdo jer. anyway, kaki xley nk jln sgt.
ye r 12 jam berdiri,  n myb jugak sbb kasot 2 x brape bgus tok my foot.
xlrt la nk tulis lg,mcm nk muntah plak. t ble dh ok sy post lg.
to my hunny, i love u...n always remember u.

i NEED u

easy for u but hard for me. OH GOD, wat should i do now?? not only part of me missing. i missing my self now. am i will b ok? dont think so. i had nothing now. oh GOD, im shaking. i LOVE him more than i love my self. I NEED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i knw it impossible. he had his life. he cant ignore tat. bnyk hati yg dia kne jage.omg i cant stop crying.the most important person in my life is missing.

(T_T)

....crying....

its over

...... crying .......

berade d LUAR kwsn??

hey dear, where's on earth r u ha???
i been waiting for the whole day! tah pelusuk dunia mane la ni yg u g.
kate blk mlm, ni dh kesiangan still x blk lg. seriusly, im worried!!
plz back as soon as possible k?

he LOVE me!!

recently, rase mcm dia xsyg sy..tp mlm smlm kami jmp. n mlm 2, sy dpt rase dia sgt2 syg sy.

n sy sgt happy!!!

tq hun...

empty...

my heart stop beating

it just feel like there a empty space down there

( silent mode )

Expected too much?

im not really happy when im writing this post. btol la ckp owg, love ni sometimes can make us soo happy smpi rase dri berterbangan kat udare. tp in same time, love boley bwt kite rase x nk bercakap for the whole day or myb more sbb xd mood. n tat is wat happend to me now. dont feel like i want to talk with anyone. something inside my heart tat i cant xplain. so tat y im here. place tok curah kn ape yg ak rase.

he is here, tp ak xth knp ak rase dia jauh. rase mcm...ak tnggu dia dgn pnuh xcited,teruje ble dia nk blk cni. tp ble dia blk ak rase dia still jauh.seolah2 dia x blk pown.knp dgn ak eh?? am i expected too much frm him? ak rase x... see..ak dh start rase ssh ble jd owg num 2. pkre yg pling ak bnci is ble ak rase dia mcm dh mule bosan dgn relationship. r u bowing wit our relationship mr.E?

myb ak paranoid kot, sbb relationship ak dlu brhnti kat tgh jln sbb dh xd sparks dlm relationship 2..dh dim.. i try so hard tok relation ni xjd mcm yg pnh jd dlu.

ape ptt ak bwt eh? mr.E pnh ckp, wkt dia mule2 nk blk sane, dia ckp, 

" i need u"

"jgn tinggal kan i"

ni la yg bwt ak bertahan. bwt ak pk blk stiap kali ak mule rase yg bkn2. ak sgt syg dia. sgt2 syg dia.

tell me mr.E tat u still need me. tats all i want to hear frm u. the short sentence tat can make my heart beating again for u. yg akn bwt smue ketakutan i pergi. tell me E, tat u need me...tats all i want.

Nak tuuu...!!

cube teka ayat sape?? ni ayat aten.. baby kecik yg sgt sy syg! asl d iklan mknan je msty dia ckp, 'nk tuu..'.
lps ni kene ajar ckp, ' xnk la...' hehe.. ye r asl jmp iklan mkanan je nk, yg dasyat nye plak, dia th plak mane iklan mknan.. pndi btol si kecik ni..

baby kesayangan sy!!

he is HERE!

HEY2!! anyway, just to write to tell that mr.E is back! hehe...
just arrived last nyte. quite late but he made it! sooo happy n cant wait to c him!

i HATE waiting!

sminggu dh sy tnggu. n ble tbe arinye, dia xblk plak.eee.... GERAM nye! knp xblk...?? kate cuty seminggu. ni nk nages ni. u.....!!!! blk la cpt. i dh lame tnggu ni.. slalu kul 7 u dh smpi umah. ni xd pown. xblk la 2.
smpi ati, i tnggu u tau..cpt la blk. i RINDU u...

list of thingS to BUY~

haha..blom dpt pown ptptn lg, tp sy dh merancang tok menghabis kan duet trsbot! well org kate perancangan mesty ada. d bwh adalah list thingS to buy after i get my money :

1. kasot NIKE yg dh lame sy idam2 kn.. hah sgt cantik!!!

2. Printer yg dh lame nk beli, tp x beli2..

3. Ok, yg ni gler ckit, masih dlm pertimbangan, jangan sape2 yg terkejut ok? Camera Digital SLR, Nikon 

( D90 or D5000 )
hah! kan saye dh kate, jgn terkejut. tp yg ni sy btol2 nk. akak sy kate, nk kongsi duet beli yg ni. tp sy nk tnye pendapat mr.E dlu.. mesty dia mcm xkasi. mesty dia kate," u nk wat pe b?? "...tp ape pown, sy kne mintak pendapat mr.E dlu. sbb dia penasihat kewangan sy! hehehe..

4. ok yg ni typical pnye thingS which is, shopping some clothS! hehe = D

2 je yg saye nk. xbnyk kn??

mR. E....

i hav something to let u know..
here it is...

ur eyes, ur eyes make the stars look like they are not shining

i know, i know when i compliment u, u wont believe it,

and its so, it so sad when u dont see what i see,

n u want to know what?

when i see your face,there are not a things that i would changes,

cause u r amazing just the way u are!

and when u smile, the whole world stop and stare for a while,

cause boy u r amazing just the way u are!

~ WHy ~

today i felt like soo down. looking at my self. i got lot of  weakness compared to the goodness. n it make me hate my self. it make me feel like i dont deserve to get anything. n sometimes i mad at my self, i mad at the destiny..

y is it so hard to be me? y is it so hard in my life??

people always said tat, we cant get everything tat we want. yes i knw..but y i cant even get any part of it?! i hate my self. i really do.

short note for my lovely hunny bie...

i dont knw if u knw this well.. but deep in my heart saying, u r soo mean to me. u r such a great things tat ever happen 2 me. being with u make me realise how beautiful my life is.

this may not words tat can make disscribe how much i love u..but this may some words tat i want u to knw...

to my love,

- i dont think u realise how easily u u make me smile...

- u'll never understand how much i love u, and i'll never understand why..

- when i tell u tat i love u, i dont say it out of habit or make a conversation. i say it 2 remind u tat u r the best things tat ever happend to me

- n i admit it tat, i think of u every second of every day, u're my favourite subject to talk about, when i hug u i wish i could never let go,most of all my dream hav u in them, n i always get xcited when i see u again

with all those things i admitted tat I'M COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH U!!!

dH aBiSSS ExaM!!!

YEHAAA!!!!sy dh abis exam.... gembire nye. just had a dinner with my fren. we talking  n talking.. glad that we met today.
anyway 2morrow public holiday. is he coming back? i really hope tat he is coming back diz week. i need it so badly!! hunny bie, plz come back!!!

last paper --> LAW

td nye killer paper, really killing me. n now, just one paper left! LAW....
klu pk negative, paper td wat ak down..
tp klu pk positive, tinggal 1 je paper..pas2 cuty sem! saat yg ak tnggu2..
sbb cuty sem dia ad..wah..happy nye!
owg kate, kite yg tntukn mood kite. so ak xnk pk negative, ak nk pk positive je! which is there's only one paper left, hav 2 focus on it, n try the best! n then..cuty sem..yeyeyyy!!!! xsbr nk tnggu my hunny bee blk!
but now, kite stdy dlu k? muahhahaha!!

Exam Oh Exam...

Skrg ni minggu exam. n sy br je lps jwb exam CTU td.. dh 2 paper pergi mningal kn ku. pergilah.. jgn dikau kembali! haha..
so another 3 paper 2 go. Nver give up! n Keep it Up!
my next paper will be on this thursday. its my fav subject, Building Services. hoping a A+ for this. insyaallah..amin.. doa kn ye?
bwt mase skrg sy nk tdo, pas2 bgun nk stdy Building smpi gler. hehe. k bye2~

when i miss u, i dream u...

i miss u so much E.. i dream about u last nyte. i dream tat we were in the same University. We went to class together,stdy together,lunch together.. i really hope tat it was real.
when u going home? i miss u damn much.
i been bz with my stdy, as u may knw i hav exam this coming monday. soo stress. wish me luck k? n come back soon. love u hun..

Broga Hill!!!

TO MR.E~

i WANT to go to the BROGA HILL this semester break. i dont care. i REALLY2 want to go there. this is the top list of the place where i want to be in this semester break. dont forget to put it on ur schedule k? love u!!

Property news...

Stamp duty exemption on housing loan.

In an effort to ensure every citizen owns a residential property, the government has proposed stamp duty exemption on instruments of transfer and loan agreements for residential property.

To encourage ownership of the first residential property, it has proposed that a stamp duty exemption of 50 per cent be given on instruments of transfer of a residential property priced not exceeding RM350,000.

The exemption is granted for the first residential property purchased by a Malaysian citizen and it can be claimed once only within the exemption period, Prime Minister, Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak said today.

Residential properties include terrace houses, condominiums, apartments or flats, he said when tabling the Budget 2011 at Parliament here, today.

The effective date for the exemption is for sales and purchase agreements executed between Jan 1, 2011 and Dec 31, 2012, said Najib.

As for the stamp duty exemption on loan agreements for residential property, he said there would be also a stamp duty exemption of 50 per cent for residential property prices not exceeding RM350,000.

This exemption is applicable for sales and purchase agreements executed from Jan 1, 2011 to Dec 31, 2012.
more information about the property in  malaysia, check this out!!

iproperty 

Exam Schedule...

For student or my friends in AP225 :  our exam schedule

25/10/2010 - Property Management

( 9 am - 12 pm )

 26/10/2010 - CTU

( 9 am - 12 pm )

29/10/2010 - Building Services

( 2.45 pm - 5.45 pm )

1/11/2010 - Investment Appraisal

( 9 am - 12 pm )

4/11/2010 - Law

( 2.15 - 5.15 pm )

4/11/2010, 5.16 pm - FREEDOM!! yeahhhh....

P/S : if u guys want to check on it, u may visit this exam schedule AP225

MRA??

bsok last kelas, tp arini masih lagi stress dgn assignment. My last assignment MRA, sy sgt la xphm n xth nk wat. tlg la sy Ya Allah, bantu la sy menyiap kn bnde2 ni secepat mungkin, sbb sy nk focus pd final exam sy. sy bkn nk mengeluh, cume sy rase sgt stress. slagi sy xsiap kn keje ni, idop sy mcm x tng. bantu la sy. beri la sy ketenagan n bantu la sy memahami akn bnde yg sy xphm. amin...

stess out!!

stress sgt2..!!!

argh!!! xphm la law ni

ape2 tah bahase dia

sok dh r d test!

gler tensyen.

dh t x sedap ati

hun.. i really want 2 meet u!

rase mcm nk nges je...

i'm scared...

i wake up in the morning, and i feel so scared.  i want na hug him. he is leaving 2day. hate when its time 4 him 2 go. plz dont go.. i need u here..

bersame insan tersayang!

arini bgun awal

sbb kne g lawn bowl

d tournament, sy berushe dgn keras skali

tp ble kne maen 10 ends berturut2

sy jd sgt la xlrt, n kmudian membuat keputusan 

tok meninggal kn tourament itu

blk ke bilik M n seri tok

mandy n bersiap sbb E nk jempot blk

yea..E blk! hehe.. sgt seronok!!

xsgke yg dia akn blk diz week

dia ambek n kami bergerak ke sbg jaye..( klu xsilap la )

dia dh mkn, jd dia tgk je sy mkn..

kami mkn d ayam penyet, rase nye not bad.. nyum2!

tq hubby!

pas mkn, kami xth nk g mane

so, E ajak kwn dia, kitorg g maen bowling

ok..sy sgt malu sbb asyik msok longkang je

pelik btol, klu maen ngn kwn xd lak asyik msok longkang je

hurm..mcm2 btol

kemudian kami g ker mcD d sec2

tnggu M n Seri, nk ambek note law

lame jugak kami lepak kat c2 smpt tgkp pic lg

sungguh cute bf sy ni kn??

 lps dh selesai
sy d antr pulang
sy sgt happy, dh lame xjmp dia
sy rase mcm sy bermimpi
ape pown sy nk ckp,
hun.. i really love u!!

me, blinded by love...

me and my best fren, we had chat.. she talking about she n her bf.. im soo happy 4 her. while we chatting, suddently, his name came across. its E..
she asked be about him. n i answered, " to be honest, i dont knw how he is " , " i dont knw when he's going back ", wat i knw is " he promised me tat he will be back " tats all i knw.
then, she asked me, " r u happy being like this? ", she added, " dont u feel like taste of 'her' lipstic when u kiss him", " u knw wat i mean? "
then i said, " u mean, when we look to his eyes n we see 'her' in tat eyes, ryte? "
me n him, its complicated. wat i knw is i love him soo much.i dont care wat people said, i dont care wats going 2 be happend.coz wats really matter is i love him n he love me. n myb bcoz im blinded by wat we called it as love.

PTA di OVERSEA??

haha..something happened 2 me 2day. n it was a gud news anyway!!

2day i hav a presentation in building services. b4 tat d test on Property Management. n d sbb kn d test pagi nye 2. i dont really do preparation 4 the presentation.

As usuall, i dont need paper while present, bkn sbb nk tnjuk pndi tp tkot t shaking lak. so dtg la dpn n pure2 yakin, konon nye dh wat preparation n th pe nk ckp. tp 2 be truth, i dont really remember wat 2 say. smue nye bergantung dgn kayakinan yg xseberapa n kebolehan yg xsbrape boley. hehe...

dhn bacaan bismillah, ak mule kn presentation ak 2, d saksi kn oleh hampir 60 kwn2 yg laen.

thnx god, everything goes well.

ble smue dh abis present, tbe2 lecturer tnye..

" Qurratu, awk CGPA 3 n above ker?? "

sy hnye menganguk kepale.

then lecturer sy yg cantik pown kate,

" nnt klu awk d mase, jmp sy.."

dia trut brkate pada kwn sy yg bername nisa..

kami membuat reaksi pelik. ak brtanye dlm hati, knp plak ni..

then dia sperti th2 je ak tgh mempersoal kn, lalu dia mnjwb, ayat nye spert ini,

" sy mncari bdk2 yg ley brcakp, yg d communication skill, sy nk guide owg2 yg pndi ni ( kononnye ), t sy nk bwk diorg wat PTA kat oversea..( n i just like...ha?? pas2 ak dg xdgr dh yg laen2)

ak agak xbrpe pasti pe yg dia ckp, ble ak duduk, mira ckp " ala...ak nk g wat PTA kat oversea gak"

then br la ak smakin yakin.

d sbbkn ayah dh tnggu lame, ak x g pown jmp lecturer 2. ak ingt myb ak nk g jmp dia sok.

asal d nye name oversea smue pown teruje kn? kwn2 pown teruje. tp ak masih xbrpe pasti smpi la lecturer 2 terang kn btol2. jd ape2 perkembangan akn d beritahu kemudian ye..

skrg sy perlu mandy sbb sy nk stdy. klu nk g oversea tp xpandi ssh gak.hehehe

bye2~

injured!

mcm2 jd pd saye smlm. myb bad luck kot. kelas dr pg smpi la ke mlm. ptg 2 ada fitness test. so we r required to run within 15 minute. but i managed to run only for 6 minute! hehe.. im the fastess ok!soo.. i got 10 marks 4 tat.  yahoo! blk dr koko jln kaki ke anggerik. kaki wkt 2 dh mule sakit. tp wat bodo jer. smpi dlm kul 7 lbh. br je smpi lbh kurang 5 minute, fish call kate suh siap, coz diorg nk ambek dh. g mane?? mlm 2 d test CTU.
sy sgt la pnt, sbb xsmpt nk rehat pown. mkn pown cpt2. nsib baek x tercekik. then fish dtg. kitorg kne g fac business n law. parking agak jauh, so kne jln.. wkt 2 kaki dh smkin sakit. tp wat bodoh lg.
ble dh smpi sane, pning2 gak coz kne cri dewan yg ustaz ckp 2. then tbe2 dlm cari2 2, saye rase kaki sy sgt sakit. tbe2 kaki kejang. then...sy rebah ke lantai. kwn2 sy pown kelam kabot. smue owg yg ad kat c2 pandang. sy sgt malu, tp sy sakit sgt, mls nk pk.. sy xley bagon, so diorg tolong. ble msok kat hall smue pndg. dh r gabong dgn budak business! malunye...... tp sy btol2 xley focus wkt jwb test 2.
ble abis test sy still perlu kn bantuan tok berjalan. wkt 2 tbe2 sy ingt E. E...i really miss u!! where r u?? hm....
mlm 2 gak, P msg asking if im ok. dia ni th2 je sy injured. sejak akhir2 ni makin kerap plak dia contact. lg2 lps dia g th yg dia nk tackle sy. sy mls pk, bwt mcm biase je..
arini.. sy masih jln terhenjut2. messy sgt arini.rase smue bnde nk mrh. myb sbb sy sakit n pergerakkan sy agak terbatas. benci gler!! ble pk, bnyk sgt bnde brlaku dlm mase yg singkat. E left without any news, P coming with hope, exam tat just around the corner, bundle of assignment... im going 2 be crazy!!
wat i knw is :

• i miss E damn much!
• i hav prepare 4 my final exam, 
• nk siap kn all my assignmant as soon as possible and.....
• nk kaki cpt2 smboh!

is not 2 much ryte..

im sorry

i never thought tat i'm the reason 4 who u r now. im sorry.i really do. watever it is, i will always support u.

gOOd MorninG!

hey everyone! morning2!! arini cuace nmpk baek. udare pown nyaman je. so, kite pown kne la smgt! every day is a new day... start with fresh and excitment!

anyway arini d kelas law dr kul 8.30till 12.30. hope i understand every single things yg lecturer ajar.

exam shedule dh kuar, n tat is a yellow card 4 me, remembering me tat exam just around the corner!

so wake up sya! its a study time baby!! hehe...

hurm.. tbe2 tringt, b4 E blk, dia d ckp aftr 2 weeks dia nk blk cni. agak2 dia blk x eh?? hurm..xpela. t klu dia blk mesty dia call kn. really miss u E!

bengong nye aku!

br je blk..kelas abis lmbt arini kul 7 lbh. kul 8 kwn ambek, then g mkn. sgt pnt.tp best ble kite blk pnt2, then tros mandy. rase mcm fresh n tenang je!

anyway rase sgt klakar!haha.. ak mmg ptt d gelak kn! btape bengong nye ak krane x nmpk bnde yg dpn mata!! thnx M ssb buke kn mata i ni..pnye la lame aku ber blog..tp rupenye ak masih lg bengong psl blog ni.

klu prasan b4 this, ak nye post berwarne warni, tp 1 ari ak found out yg ak xley nk tkr font n make my post colourfull. ak puas la pk n cari mane silap nye. tp xjmpe2. smpi ak g tnye lecturer yg ajar ak computer. then lecturer ak ni pown tgk la blog ak. dia pown xdpt jmp mane silap nye. pas2 dia ckp, 'xpe..nnt sy tgk blk mcm mane nk btol kn, sbb sy pown dh x ingt' then ak pown ckp, 'baek lah sir'..

n arini ak g blik M sementare tnggu si P ambek ak..ak nmpk M bkk blog, then ak tnye la mcm mane nk solve kn mslh ak 2. nk th pe M bwt?? Dia just clik compose, then ak dh nmpk smue bnde2 alah yg ak nk 2. then ak pown gelak kn dri ak, n diorg pown pe lg, M n seri turut gelak kn ak. d saat 2 ak merasekn dri ku sgt la bodoh! haha..

pepatah d mngatakn ' kdg2 bnde yg dpn mate 2 pown kite xnmpk, pdhl bnde 2 dkt dgn kite'. so jadikn lah kisah ini 1 pngajaran bwt kite.

PS : Ape2 pown sy happy sbb sy dh ley wat my post colourfull.. yeay!!!

HUN! I MISS U!!!!

tO my Lover, Mr.E~

guess wat im doing now??

haha..can u guess wat im doing now?? (not tat thing la! so..naughty!)
sok sy ad ujian lisan bhse arab. so..sy tgh mengarang ayat dlm bhse arab. nsib baek ada google! thnx technology, u save me!
haish.. berbelit2 gak lidah nk mnyebot ayat2 ni. xpe sya.. berushe lah!! hee...
anyway, sy rindu dia.. sgt2.. u.. kat cni hujan, kat sane ujan x? almost everyday i mandy hujan. tp i ok..i kan kuat! hurm.. i d bnyk test, u doa kn i tau? love u..
k la nk smbong stdy. bye2!!

mood : happy study!

mood sy arini is study! (myb sbb sy nk jadi mcm nana kot) so sy xcited! heee.. happy nye sbb arini d mood tok study. so ble dtg mood ape lg, cpt2 la g study.. ble abis study, rase mcm nk tulis something plak kat blog ni, so..sy d sini, menulis d saat smue org sudah lena d buai mimpi.
ble study td, tbe2 tringat wkt dok kat kolej (asrama) wkt part1. every nyte sy mesty stdy. ble dok kolej, kite jd rajin sbb dh xd bnde yg ley kite wat ble kat kolej. yela...tv pown xd. tp ape pown home always a sweet home. im happy 2 be here, in my own house, while others are struggling with 'home sick'. i knew how it fell. scared.. sad.. so, i am so lucky!
n 4 tat reason i wont let my self being lazy! exam just around the corner and there are still a lot of thing 2 be done. god, help me go through this thing! sy nk brushe slgi sy mampu! insyaallah..

sejak kblkgn ni, post sy mcm miss something kan? not bcoz i forget him o i dont remember about him. i still hav trust on him and i will always do. it just like i dont want him 2 think tat i keep thinking about him every single moment even thou tat was true. so.. i keep my self bz with assignment, class, social life n etc.
but trust me, he always on my mind, always hoping tat he is fine.
to tell u the truth, sy mcm dh terbiase plak ble dia xd..myb sbb sy th yg dia x g mane2 kot. sy th yg ble smpi wkt dia akn blk. so..im not worry.

dh ngantok la.. ptt la, dh kul 1. nsib baek kelas pagi sok batal. which mean sok kelas 2 jam je. yeay!! love it. huhu... k la nk tdo, nyte everyone!

to my beloved fren~

i cant wait 2 c u diz weekend! i hav lot of things 2 share wit u. n i think, it same goes 2 u ryte??
anyway, hav u thinking about it?it is life tyme opportunities. so u better think it carefully. wat ever ur decision is, i will always support u! omg! i cant believe tat u will leave me. but its 4 ur own gud ryte. so...choose the right one!
anyway, sometimes kite rase mcm kite x ready but somehow, through time, circumstance.. we hav 2 be ready.. n u knw wat? im already expected tat this is going 2 b happen, coz u deserve it girl!!!!

sooo sweet... Huh!

i just thinking about to write something sweet. but then i just saw something n i was like...never mind.
nyte everyone.

T0night

..... i miss him .......

t0day

.... im so tired ......

haha..funny day!

OMG!! i dont believe wat i just did. im seriusly crazy! grr...
im so blurr ryte now. br je blk dr kelas. sgt x lrt. kelas dr kul 8.30 pg smpi kul 10 lbh br smpi umah. so damn tired!
k la gtg. nk mandy. bye2

dont disturb me..

i dont knw wat he want frm me. but honestly im not interested. sorry. but im kind da 'rimas' wit his attitute. sound jht kn? but... dlu d la suke kat dia ckit. tp skrg x kot. ape nk wat ni.. mane2 sy g d dia. dh la dia th umah sy.
ingt dia saje2 contact sbb bowing. tp mkin lame makin ligat plak. pas2 dia kate dia suke i. waduh g mana yea. msg nya ak ngak bls. tp nnt dia call. ble ak on9 dia lg muncul. smpi sy harus hide kan comment d fb, sbb stiap kali update status mesty dia comment. n now x dpt comment,dia pnuh kan inbox i plak.
dh ckp d bf pown xphm lg. ni siap nk anta bagai. waduh g mana yea..
plz god help me! ak ngak lyn, tp dia lg muncul.
i think i kne wat plan. na..u hav 2 help me k? anywhere gud luck nana 4 ur test. wish u all the best!! we will talk about diz later k??

hello there!!! (^^,)

everyday is always a new day. n im happy!!! na2 kate, everyday must start with new fresh air , br kite semangat! yeah..
anyway, td dh jwb test 3D architecture, yg wat plan2 dlm computer 2.. and i think i did it very well! yeah..happy bangat!!
arini kelas kejap je.. kul 8.30 smpi 12.. skrg dh kat umah. arini ibu masak lauk sedap. sgt kebulur sementare tnggu ayah ambek td. ble smpi umah, tros g dapor.. wat pe? mkn la pe lg.. nyum2 sdp! arini ibu msk lauk ayam msk kicap. haha..pdn muke xdpt mkn mskn mak! jelous x? mesty jelous kn?? huahuahua..
arini everything goes smoothly..
every time i miss him, i will keep listen 2 this song, "i miss u" by blink 182.. i will keep listen to it smpi ilang rindu 2. tat song wat i happy. hehe..
ari sabtu ni umah fish d open house.. xth if nk g ke x.. sbb dh janji ngn pakdin nk kuar same. hurm..myb ley bwk pakdin g open house 2? gud idea sya! ok.. i will inform pakdin later on.
th x ble prot dh knyang kite rase ape??
jwpn nye = rase ngantok la!
sooo...sy nk tdo.. smpi cni je dlu k?
bye2..muah!muah!

maen hujan!!

arini sy g kelas 2 jam jer. sbb class yg laen smue xde. sy g sbb sy pk d test arab. tp xd pown. ustaz 2 kate, start frm next week kitorg akn sntiase d test. yeah! sound gud ryte?? hahah..im dead yoo! hehe..
blk td ujan lbt sgt. sy n ayah ape lg, maen ujan la! sgt sejuk kot. tp kdg2 ble dpt maen hujan rase sronok plak. rase best je. tringat plak memory named 'kissing in the rain' (^^,)
diz weekend ingt nk g hang out wit pakdin. if pakdin is not going anywhere jd la kitorg kuar.
anywhere, 2morrow i got test. 3D architecture. pray 4 me k? mlm ni ley la sy practise wat plan dlu. smpi sy teror..nnt ley dpt A!
k la..till tat. bye2!!

why fren is important? here is the answer..

i hav quite lot of fren. but this one is different. she always positive in every single of her advices. when i got confuse, she will help me. when i got things incorrectly, she will correct me. this is wat happen when i got thing incorrectly..

Amanina Zahar: usually things will mess up when we make
assumption,
so why not just take it as what written,
dun try to figure out
the other possible meaning,
it's true hes leaving now
(hes away from u now kan)
and he'll be back soon
(bila cuti nanti)

n this make me think positive.. i believe in her, and i believe in him.
so..i will live a happy life..
thanks na!

T_T

i cant sleep last nyte. im sad...seriusly..im crying now..i feel scared, scared that he gonna changed. na2 said im thinking 2 much and na2 was ryte.i read in his blog, he said he wont changed. he will still be him. he told me not 2 thinking 2 much about it. he love me n always miss me. n i believe in it.
he gonna leave 2day. like always, ble dia dtg, dia mesty kne g blk 4 his stdy. and like always..i will sad and definitly crying. but he said, he wont go 4 long diz tyme. he going back after 2 week.n i will wait till that.
u.. tc tau.. im okey.. dont worry about me.. i tnggu u blk k? jge dri tau kat sane. bljr rajin2. jgn x tdo! n jgn xmkn! just jage ksihatan. dont naughty2 k.
serius sdey xd u. rase mcm budak2 je nges. i wish i can hug u b4 u left. tp xpela.. u drive carefully k? i love u..n i always love u..n i definitly going 2 miss u n thinking of u all the tyme!! bye2 sweet heart.. mmmmuuuuaaahhh!!!!

past is past

knp la relationship ni complicated. ble kite concern pown ssh. x ambek th pown ssh. pe ptt ak bwt ak pown xth. dgn keje yg melambak. dgn mslh yg dtg. rase mcm gler pown d. u ckp past is past. ok then. bgos jugak mcm 2. i mngunkit ker? sorry xsdr. wont happen again. just 2 let u know, im concern about u. if not i just dont care wat u do. myb u xbrape nk sdr td, so i wont keep it on my heart. u rehat la..t ble dh bgon myb u akn okey. i xkcu u. when u need me, i will always there 2 company u. just take care.

with lots of love,
bie

chot chet

sy xth knp n mngape. tp yg sy th, sy syg dia. sy x suke ble dia dh nk kne blk. sbb it gonna b hard 4 me. ble dia xd, dunia sy jd brbeza. ble dia d sy rase sgt bhgia. tp smkin sy dkt ngn dia, smkin sy jd tkot. tkot akn khilgn ngn dia. hbgn kami ni risk. tp tah knp sy still nk tros kn. slgi sy rase happy dgn dia sy akn tros kn. ble mase dia dh x syg sy, myb sy akn pk kn tok end diz. tah knp sy yakin yg hbgn kitorg akn thn lame.
sy rindu sgt kat dia. wlupon kitorg br je jmp td. tp sy still rindu dia. sy xnk pk ape akn blaku ble dia xd. sbb mmg dh pasti ble dia dh xd, part of me gonna b missing 2. its been 4 month now. tp rase mcm dh lame. myb sbb kitorg mmg dh knl lame. klu la ak plih dia dlu n bkn syafiq. tp bnde dh lps.
ble dia dh blk kuantan, ak kne pk blk pe yg ak nk dlm idop. ak kne mule pk knp ak stdy. ak kne pk blk matlamat ak tok dpt first class honour. bnyk lg assignment ak yg xsiap. ak risau tp knp tah ak still x mule kan ape2. ni la yg ak xsuke ble dia blk cni. bkn sbb pe, ak xsuke sbb stiap kali dia blk sbg, akn tibe saat dia kne blk kuantan blk. ble wkt 2 dtg, ak akn jd down gler. 4 sure ak akn nges smpi mata bengkak. owg myb kate ak ni bodoh. tp ak xkesah. sbb knyataan nye ak mmg sdey ble dia kne pergi.
td ble jmp dia,dia mcm nmpk stress je. mcm d mslh. 2 be honest i try so hard tok bwt dia gelak. ak akn ckp pe je yg ak rase ley wat dia happy wlupon bnde 2 bnde paling bodoh pnh ak ckp. ble nmpk dia snyum ak akn ckp dlm hati, 'finally dia snyum gak'...
klu sbb ak la dia stress. ak rase sberslh. tp xperlu kot stress sbb ak. dia xkesah pown psl ak. sejak akhir2 ni mcm touching je ngn dia. dia mcm dh laen je. ak xth mcm mane nk react. nk tnye tp tkot. sbb sejak akhir2 ni dia garang. t dia ok kot. tah la.. ak pown naek pening.

my final words...

~A person who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is~


kdg2 kite mrh, kite mungkin xpk pe yg kite ckp kn. sorry frm the bottom of my heart.

hate argument!

ak rase ble kita publish blog, sometimes ley bwt gado je. bkn 2 tujuan utame ak tok tulis dlm blog ni. ak tulis blog tok luah kan pe yg ak rase. bkn nye nk cri gado o nk cri psl o nk cri mslh. bnyk lagi keje laen yg ley ak bwt drp bwt smue 2.

another story.

y i hate relationship? this is the reason y. relationship is complicated. psl bnde kecik je ley wat kite gado. ak cukup bengang ngn dia. smue nye nmpk seolah2 mcm ak yg slh. knp dia ckit pown xley nk phm. knp plih tok war? kn kite d peace?
idop dia xd beza pown tnpe ak. ak th. ble dia gado ngn ak. dia still d pompuan 2. so xd mslh bg dia. mcm dia slalu ckp. dia xsyg ak. dia just syg relationship. klu relationship ni bwt mslh kat dia, mksd nye xd lg la relationship ni.

psl ego??

everyone in my life knl sgt pragai ak. ak mmg xd ego. ak mudah mngalah. tp kali ni dia bwt ak nk d ego. ak xth knp mesty ad ego. sbb na pnh ckp, mngalah bkn brmksd kite slh. jd ak lbh suke ambek langkah tok xmemanjang kn lg mslh ni. jd biar la ak yg mngalah. xpela asal kn bnde ni xlg brpnjgn. idop mmg mcm ni kn. kdg2 kite happy, kdg2 bnyk plak mslh yg timbol.

love..
ak mmg syg dia. sgt syg dia. wlupon ak xth if dia syg ak ke x. ak xboley nk jadi mcm yg dia nk. ni la ak. fam ak come first. klu dia syg ak, dia akn phm kn? i hope so. klu pown dia xsyg ak lg. ak rase ak dh brsedia. ak akn jalani idop ak mcm dlu. focus on my stdy. nk bljr tinggi2 smpi mane yg ak mampu. n ak tetap akn doa kan kjyaan dia n kbhgaian dia.

klu d jodoh..
mcm owg ckp, klu d jodoh x kemane kn? n klu xd jodoh. bwt la pe pown, owg 2 tetap xkn jadi milik kite.

akhir kate,
wlupown d owg kate, only dead fish will go with the flow, but i still believe somehow, without thinking 2 much on our life will make things more easier. so i will chose 2 go with tat flow n hoping that along the way i will find my happines.

open house!

arini umah sy bwt open house. jd sy bgun awl pg tlg ibu msk2. sgt rmi yg dtg.kwn adik2 sy, kwn akak sy.mlm ni pown still d kwn2 adik sy yg dtg.n sy hnye jmpot kwn2 yg rpt ngn sy je. so nana d, amat, pakdin, mia n lain2. even my ex pown dtg. tp dia xbwk plak gf dia. sy ingt dia ajak sbb sy jmpot gf dia skali. we doing ok so far. everyone is move on. tats gud ryte?
'dia' xdtg pown. sy d call jugak. tp wkt 2 "die" d kat sblh. so i just like okey. at least sy dh mngalah n call dia. trpulang la kat dia. sy bengang tp biar la. mls nk pk. klu dia ambek brt dia th pe ptt dia bwt. if not then wat can i say. bnci sbb bnde kecik pown smpi gado. tp sy hnye akn mngalah skali. sy xkn mngalah lg. sy d gak ego n sy th gak mrh. ssh kn ble jd owg num 2. kite je asyik nk kne mngalah. bkn nk mngunkit. ni tmpt sy tok luah kn prasaan. klu sy xlg boley nk tulis pe yg sy rase mksd nye ni bkn lg tmpt sy. sy dh bnyk kali trase hati, tp sy cube buang jauh2. sbb myb dia xprasan, myb dia xsgje. tp kdg2 sy jd.... tah la mls la. 2 minggu dia cuty. sy xperlu kn smue ari2 2. sy just nk luang kn mase dgn dia je. 10 minit pown okey. tp dia slalu pk laen. sy xkn ambek mase awk lame2. sy th awk d dia n knw2 awk gak. sy pnt asyik sy je nk ajak awk jmp. n smlm sy pnt xpsl2 plak sy yg kne mrh. sdey th x. ye laen kali sy xkn ckp ape2. awk je la yg bwt kptsn. just sy pnt nk jage prasan owg laen tp owg laen xpnh nk pk prasaan sy. (T_T) sy manusia biase, sy jugak d prasaan. sy bkn heartless. 2 je.

mrh??

ye..td sy mrh..tp skrg x lg. skrg sy lbh kpd hurt. tp xkesah la ape pown sbb sy dh mls nk pk. just 2 let u knw yes sy sgt ssh. n yes im 12 not 20. ye idop sy jugak bkn mcm awk. idop sy d control. awk ingt sy suke ker? klu awk dok tmpt sy br awk th ssh nye jd sy. knp sy dgr ckp? sbb sy syg hormat dia as my father.
sy pnt arini. jgn la cri psl dgn sy. sy rase sy yg ptt mrh. sy ingt nk kuar jmp awk mlm ni. kat dpn umah sy ni ad knduri. klu sy kuar lmbt ssh. awk phm x? klu awk ajak kul 9 td. sy mmg nk kuar. tp awk nk majok2 plak ble sy xnk kuar. sbb dh kul 10 lbh. owg kat luar 2 rmi. tp awk xphm. sy mngalah.. sy dh siap2 nk kuar. ingt nk ikot jln blkg. bkn sbb sy trpakse.tp sbb sy appreciate awk ssh2 tnggu smpi dia blk. tp awk plak nk mrh2. sy sgt tension. dgn idop sy yg mcm ni. awk ingt sy suke ker? klu ssh sgt dgn sy. then tinggal kn je sy. sy pown xnk ssh kn idop awk. n sy jugak xnk beban kn lg idop awk. sy xsuke thn mrh. sbb t tgn sy shaking. t sy ssh nk brnafas. tp dr sy mrh2 u. baek sy thn mrh sy 2.
klu sy yg slh.. sy mintak maaf. sorry sbb dh bwt u mrh.
just dont use harsh words 2 me. im done.

sgt pnt lah..

arini 1 ari sy g jln2.. bsme vc! kami pergi braye! dr pagi smpi lewat ptg td. knw wat kami still dpt duet raye!! best gler! sok nk g raye lg la... huahuahua..
kami kuar agak awl. dlm kul 10 lbh sy dh gerak dr umah.mia yg ambek sy.. tq mia! mule2 g kajang umah bear2. smpi sesat2 la. hehe.. mkn2 kat umah bear2,smbot bday ten2 skali. pas2 gerak g umah ten2.. lepak2..mkn2.. then blk antar kaka kat umah dia. pas2 g tmn mia n nana g umah fida. dh 2 kali sy raye umah fida. malu nye..
anyway.. dia ckp nk kuar mlm ni. tp xd pown dia call. td sy dh bg msg wkt 'die' d kat sblh. serius sy xth. awk xd ckp. so sorry..klu i th i xkn msg. sorry jugak sbb sy dh ssh kan awk. im sorry...

sy pelik + messy

hello everyone! im home!!! yeyyy!!!
there a lot of thing 2 b shared. a lot of thing happen recently on eid mubarak. im acting like annoying girl, jelousy girl, sensetive in the past few minute..hahaha
but im normal now. yeah..im normal. im thinking 2 much mayb. unsecured.
there is something i want na shared wit u guys. i watched 1 movies in astro. there is quote tat grab my attention. it sound something like this " in relationship or love, those who care less will win". pcye x? dont knw y, but somehow i kinda believe it. when we care less, we hurt less, we dont really take things seriously which will benefit that party.
but that is not the main thing.just nk shared sbb mcm mnrik.
u guys must b wondered y i ckp i pelik, annoying, messy n etc..?? when we want 2 knw something more, or when we understand more, it only came out reversly. tat happen 2 me. im not enjoying wat im doing now, bcoz im thinking 2 much. im thinking wat would happen in the futher. u got me?
in simple words, ble kite makin syg someone, we r turn up 2 b someone else. someone who not believe in their self, someone who feel not secured, someone who feel y me??, someone who question her partner real feeling, someone who just take things complicated, someone who feel so many things in period of tyme.. which then end up no where but just make the relationship worst. that is wat happen 2 me recently!
2 be honest, im thinking 2 much. im question ur love 2 me.. i try 2 ignored the feeling, but it just come out. i rase mcm u xsyg i. u hnye syg relation ni? which i dont understand. i cant make u fall in love over n over again. which is hurt me. i just dont knw wat im 2 u. tats my problem. there is a lot of things yg i nk ckp. tp i xnk ckp. coz i dont want 2 think about it anymore. i just want u accept me as i am. im just typical girl. can u be with this typical gurl? i th i bkn pnybr. but im honest. my feeling toward u is honest. nothings lies here. its all came out frm deep of my heart.
i knw im not a perfect gurl. im bad in every aspects. bad bed partner, bad in look, bad in every single aspects. tats y i feel unsecured. correct me if im wrong hunny. tats all. hope u understand. this may not everythings tat i want 2 say. but i think it enough. dont want 2 think about this anymore. just want 2 b happy! :D

Selamat Hari Raye!

i want 2 wish all of u selamat hari raye..especially 2 my beloved hunny bie.. love u hunny bie! i dh nk blk kg ni. tc!!mmuuahh!!!

PS: Hari raye kali lbh brmakne ble dia d sisi!

sgt pnt!

sy sgt pnt. smlm kuar 1 ari. membeli belah dan berjalan2 brsame dia. cian dia sy plih ksot sgt lame. nsib baek sy beli gak, klu x mesty tensyen je u kn? so smue dh complete. baju raye dh d, ksot raye pown dh d! smue dh d la.
smlm pas g shopping, kitorg bkk pose kat gerai dkt2 ngn pyramid 2. xth pe name dia. kitorg maen terjah je. nsib baek sedap. pas dh knyang kami pown g next destination. ke putrajaya!!! dgn teknology yg smkin canggih, kami mngunnakan GPS spye kami x sesat! hehe.. batak la gak. ingt dia sorg ley batak?! haha.
kami g sane 4 the first tyme 2gether. best gak. tgkp2 gmbr,tok kngn! heee...
pas dh enjoy2, pe lg blk la..dia pown nk kuar ngn kwn2 dia. dia plok sy b4 sy g. sy terharu!
arini sy blk kg. sy mesty rindu awk sgt2! klu la xraye. sy mesty xnk ikot blk kg. nk dgn u je. sy blk awl klu sy boley k? sy blk secepat mungkin so kite ley g wat aktiviti2 yg blom smpt kite wat.
u jage dri yeh ble sy kat kg? bwk krete hati2. focus! dh raye t jgn mkn bnyk2. dpt duet raye simpan tok bie skali! k? love u soooo much dear!!! u r everything 4 me..

with lot of love,
bie

i cant breath

knp rase mcm xley brnafas eh.. wow.. a big shock 4 me. rase nk jogging plak mlm2 bute ni. i need some air.

persiapan raye!

ola!!arini me n my fam g beli baju raye.. finally i dpt gak baju raye, yahooo!! sronok nye! sgt ssh nk cri baju kurung sy. tp xpela... yg pnting pasni xpyh pk psl baju raye dh. KL arini jem. ingt kan weekdays x jem.. rupenye same je. mane2 pown jem
arini padan muke pakwe sy. dia dok umah je.. hee.. sy dpt jln2.. xpe ye hunny bie, sok u nye turn lak tmn i. sok kite kuar dr pg smpi mlm! i g mane je u nk g. ok??
tbe2 nk ckp, i love u soo much! im seriously love u hunny bie.. u are the best thing ever happen 2 me! thanks~

hello everyone!!

hai hai.. arini bgon sgt lmbt. kul 2. heee... smlm sgt2 pnt. hang out with vc. i had a lot of fun! smpi duet pown dh abis. bju pown xbeli lg. mcm mane ni??xd bju kurung la sy jwb nye! cian nye...
smlm gerak kul 11.30 pg n smpi umh kul 11 mlm. gler kn..dh la pki wedges yg tinggi. sakit kaki ku! pasni kuar nk pki selipar jepon jer. haha.
kitorg g mid. xd pe yg boley d beli smlm. ksot xbnyk choice. ksot yg sy nk 2 still xd. pelik btol..
sy had fun smlm n bf sy xnk kalah. so dia pown hang out ngn kwn dia. dengki kn?? tp xpe.. bgos gak. dia pown dh lame x hang out ngn kwn dia. biar la dia happy2.sy happy ble dia happy. t ble d mase kite kuar k hunny?

berbuke puase....

im actually nk kuar somewhere with someone. tp rase nk write something plak b4 tnggu dia smpi. anyway.. my bf r going back 2day. tp nape sy mcm xsdp ati ye. tah knp sy rase dia dh lupe kn sy. tah biar la.
dr sy trus2 mnuggu dia, yg sy sndri xth kul bpe dia smpi. lbh baek sy g enjoy! so jap lg iman nk ambek. yea iman...my ex-room mate wkt kat kolej dlu.knp? ingt hot guy ker? sy sgt setia. sy x maen kayu2 ni. xkesah la kayu 3 ke, kayu 4 ker..ape2 je la. sbb sy <3 dia sorg jer!
ape pown arini nk enjoy puas2! g shopping! pas 2 sok kuar lg ngn vc. best nye!!
k la till that. nk rehat jap.pas 2 nk kuar. bye2! ^_*

cuty-cuty malaysia

okey arini brborak ngn nana sgt lame.. kitorg chit chat about wat we r going 2 do 4 holiday.. wat 2 knw our plan? this is the few things tat plan 2 do :

1.Nk berbuke brsame VC
2.Shopping baju baru kat pyramid, summit,mid..smue tmpt lah!
3.nk tgk wayang cter step up 3D
4.Genting.. nk jd budak2, plan nk bwk bf skali!
5.mandi air terjun! gler best..lame x g tmpt2 mcm 2..heee...
6.PARAMORE CONCERT! diz is really great!!! cant wait 4 diz!
7.bercuty bsme pakwe tersayang! agak2 kat mane eh nk g kali ni?
8.teman bf sy g memancing.. dh lame dia ajk tp sy xtmn kn pown. so kali ni biar sy yg ajak dlu.. mesty dia suke!
9.g maen ice skating. yea..again!
10.cari novel br.. tok sy n bf sy..

so this is few things yg sy nk wat..agak2 smpt x nk wat smue ni.. smpt2!! sronok nye! sbb dpt brsame dgn owg2 tersayang!
yeyyy!!! jom kite enjoy!

few things to say..

i knw i shouldnt call u..but i hav 2. i hav something 2 ask. kinda da disapointed wit ur reaction just now. rase mcm nk ckp 'i hate u!'.
i call nk tnye u, u nk join i x g tgk concert paramore. u knw im a big fan of them. kinda regret xdpt tgk diorg perform kat singapore ari 2.n mlm td amat g th yg paramore nk wat concert kat malaysia on 19 october. ingt nk ajak u skali.
tp mcm u xboley nk join kn..i th dh jwpn u.. anyway sorry kcu u dgn dia td.
bynk lg nk tnye n nk inform u. tp xpela. lupe kn. next tyme myb....

wats going on wit me??

diz is really funny. just not me. sya2 xyakin dgn dri sndri?? wat happen?? nana.. i wish u r here. i want na text u. but afraid tat i will disturb u. mcm mane ni. na.. serabot nye otak! knp la ak ternmpk facebook 2. e...benci!!! seriusly..i keep thinking about it. is like, y me? i hav nothing kot. just not suited him. she is better than me. u got me or not?? am i thinking 2 much? i mean..am i jelez or something? no im not!i just... wat ever la. mls nk pk. xley write lebih2. t mesty dia bce. i call u 2nyte ok na2? yea.. i call u.

rindu awk..

know wat.. i really2 miss u...
wat should i do..? hurm...
seriusly,i rase u dh lupe i.. even i keep telling my self tat u will never forget me, but i.... hmmm... npe u xcontact i? it been a week. its unfair ryte? there is a lot of thing tat i want na share wit u. sometimes ble bnde 2 dh lame happen, i dh terlupe pe yg i nk share dgn u. i th u suh i tnggu u. i th u dh nk blk ari jumaat ni. n i cant wait. i cant wait 2 mrh2 u! i rase mcm something bisik kat i ckp "xpe2..blk t siap dia!" hee..
tp.. t ble u d kat sni mesty u bz jugak. i th.. t mesty mcm ari 2. i just knew it. hurm.. lantak la mls nk pk. i rindu u pown kat cni, u bkn nye th. u bkn rindu i. tp i rindu u sgt2 ni. mcm mane nk wat eh. nk tdo la. sok kne bgun siap kn assignmnet. i tdo dlu..anyway..recently i been dreaming about u. dlm mimpi i dpt jmp u.. u hug i.. i rindu u hug i.. seriusly I MISS U HUNNY! cpt la blk......................

sunday~

diz is sunday pnye story..
wat im doing on last sunday??
im seriusly damn buzy on last sunday. kemas2 rumah.. raye kn dh nk dkt. so.. mmg brkerja keras ari ahad ari 2.
diz year, my house in a new look! me n my family decided to painting our house. so on last sunday kitorg begin with white colour as the base colour. so in couple of days, kitorg will finish up with the colours we chose with the agreement of all members in this house..heheeee...
myb coz im working too hard which coz me to fall sick during nyte. i got my asthma attack. im seriusly cant breath. its been a long tyme x kne asthma attack. mcm mnae x kne asthma attack, siap b'cat bagai. dh th x ley wat keje2 trok, wat gak.. pdn muke sy! but im getting better now! yeyy!!!!

baju raye

raye dh nk dkt kn? tp sy xd lg baju raye..so mcm mane? hurm... nmpknye kelam kabut la t nk cri baju raye. tema thn ni oren, jd kne la cri baju kurung yg brwrne oren atau seakan2 oren..huuu... sy ingt nk cri baju ngn bf sy.. tp mane tah pergi bf sy ni.. dh lupe sy ker? hurm... xmungkin..sbb dia sgt syg sye! ("hee..prasan nye!" mesty dia tgh ckp mcm 2 ble bce) tp sy th dia mmg syg sy! (ini adlh kyataan!) ape pown dia mesty tmn sy..xkire...
anyway vc text smlm..confirm kn yg 4 aribln nnt nk buke same2..so how? jd x nk tmn bie? bie nk beli brg.. jgn ckp "sorry..xdpt nk join..dia ajak beli brg dgn dia"
no way i nk kate "its okey.. u g la tmn dia.." not again okey?
im going back 2 kg on wednesday coz raye on friday kn? so.. u kne la tmn i ari sabtu, ahad, isnin, selase n rabu sblm i blk 2 yeh? (hee...demand kn? suke ati i lah..)

hurm..ok 2 be truth tat is wat i want.. but dont worry i kn ley tolak ansur. anytime u free kite g la beli brg same2.. sbb i th ssh nk ikot mcm pe yg i nk sbb 'our' situation. so dont worry about tat k?
gtg k love you~

not feeling well~

im sick...
just 2 let u knw..
im so dizzy..
feeling weak and im thinking of u..
wonder if u care bout me.

....thats all....

where r u?

hey sweet heart! where r u? been bz wit test? recently bie mcm mls je nk stdy.. hurm.. mcm mane eh nk bwt spye jd rajin?? smpi skrg pown xabis2 lg stdy property managment. diz thursday d test. n diz thursday gak d presentation for titas=ctu. ala yg bljr psl etnik n budaye 2. seriusly boring. i dont even hav the text book. everytime kelas 2, i bkn dgr pown. i just on9..dgr lagu..so i kinda lost. trok kn i? but i think it is not 2 late ryte? so im thinking about abiskan stdy for my test so 2morrrow i can concentrate on my presentation for titas=ctu.. yea..tats wat im going 2 do!
anyway..wat r u doing now yeh? td bkk pose pe je? arini ibu msk lauk tomyam.. tringat wkt mkn tom yam dgn u ari 2. next tyme kite g sane lg yeh? i nk msk kn tok u tp xth.. tp t i bljr. heheheeee...
u... u ingt x i d gado ngn fida dlu? sbb i g holiday ngn u n bkn spend tyme dgn dia on my birthday? smpi skrg i x ckp ngn dia. mcm mane yeh. i dh say sorry. tp.... xpe la..myb nnt ok la kot.( i th pe u pk..but i xpnh pown slh kn u..is not ur fault ok? so dont worry)
1 more thing.. cuty sem ni kite g holiday kat langkawi nk?? x pown g pangkor je? u pk la..t ble u dh dcide g th i k?
k la i nk mandy..nk stdy..u pown jgn lupe stdy k? ingt x pe i kate dlu? there is never too late 4 u..
love u dear~

to my dear~

i been so busy lately..hav no time to write on this blog or ur novel. thnx god my problem with spss is over. i spend my weekend at cyber cafe finish up the assignment as i can only installed the software using their desktop.
however, there is a lot of work coming 4 me! im so tired.. diz weekend i didnt hav enough tyme 2 rest. n i hav test on this coming Thursday tp still x abis stdy lg. kinda worried. so how ur test? it happen diz week ryte? i hope u can performed well.
i wonder how u doing there.. hope u doing great. miss u so much.. cant wait 2 c u.
anyway, ari 2 on the way 2 cc at nyte with my little brother, i saw a firework. its beautiful! wishing tat we can see it 2gether next tyme! :D
im keep thinking about u recently even hav no tyme 2 write 4 u. so dont worry, no hot guy! hehe..
anyway.. its holiday ryte 4 diz coming friday? r u going home o not? hoping tat u r back, but i afraid tat u r wasting ur money coz the next week is already sem break. its better 4 u to wait till tat. its okey..i can wait..
anyway.. nana n vc ajak kuar.. u knw vc ryte? ( tin, bear2,ka2,mia n of coz nana).their bring their bf along. myb amat will be there 2. thinking about to bring u with me. can u company me?? diorg ajak berbuke same2 n hav some shopping 4 hari raye. remember u promise to be with me all along diz mid sem break?? hoping u 2 fulfill ur promised.. ;p
2 be honest..diz ramadhan n hari raye are so meaningful 4 me. coz i got u bside me. i keep singing hari raye songs smpi my sis pown tegur y im sooo xcited about it. but i just smile.. tp dlm hati ckp " coz tahun ni u d ngn i! " weeee...!
knw wat im doing now?? i putting my hand on my chest..listen 2 my heart beat. it sign tat i miss u. i really miss u hunny! hope u missing me 2! love u hunny bie~

PS: im always pray 4 ur success.. gud luck n chaiyok2!! ^_^

stress out!

im so stress out ryte now. i got a problem with my assignment. argh! mcm mane ni. mane nk cri software 2! npe xdpt download ni. mcm mane nk wat assignment klu x ley download. submmition dh la on tuesday. lot of work 2 do. plz god help me!

everyday my love 4 u is growing...

im sleepy and so tired, coz its a long day 2day..but yet, i still want na write something.if not, i feel like part of me is missing..
hunny..diz is for you~
day by day..my love for u seem not going 2 be end.
being loved by u, make my self feel like im floating in the air.
being pampered by u, make me feel like a flower which blooming in the morning day.
being with u, is the precious moment i ever had.
talking 2 u never make my self out of idea even for the whole day night.
everytime i woke up in the morning with my eyes open, there is only ur smiling face i wish i can see.
everytime u touch me.. there is a magical power all around my body.
everytime u kiss me, it feel like im in heaven.
if i hav only 1 day left 2 live, is with u im going 2 spend my day.
u r so mean 4 me. even this words can't really tell how much i love you.
never say that u have no one in ur life.
dont ever think tat are alone in diz world...
coz..im here..created 2 company u all your life..
wat ever happend, i will always there 4 u..be ur shoulder 2 cry on.. be a person 2 share how beautiful life is..
i love u hunny..thats all i knw...

full of suprised!!!

hahaha...im smiling now.. kind da shock.. coz u dh d blog! hehe..
but thanks coz at least i knw wat happen 2 u spnjg u xd kt sisi i. want 2 knw something? i just finished my presentation. for building services. remember i told u b4?? lecturer puji i! sronok nye! at first i risau gler about this assignment. but i think me n my group did well. hope tat kitorg dpt mrkh tinggi. thanx 4 all my group members 4 all their support and commitment!
back 2 u... u always make me smile ryte?? yes u did. now i dh ley th pe yg u wat kat sane. keep updating yea? u really make me thinking of u. cant get rid out of it! anyway...npe ponteng kelas? next tyme g kelas k? dont ponteng2! n..one more thing. jgn asyik ngn poker je. i jelaz!! hehe..

P/S: love u hun! sooo much!!!!!!!!!! take care yea! jgn lupe contact i tau! mmmuaahh2!!!

y i miss u so much 2day...

ok..2 be honest i hate feeling this. i hate that i miss u.
im seriusly miss u 2day. npe u stdy jauh sgt.. cpt la practical.. i nk u d kt cni..!
mcm budak2 kn i? e...xsuke nye. rase mcm nk g sane je. i xnk pduli pe owg ckp. yg i th i nk u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really want na hug u.. br 2 hari.. im going 2 b dead witout u!
plz come home!!! plz....!!!

P/S: I dh siap kan chapter 1!hee... mesty u suke kn? so cpt la blk!

lapar~ponteng~novel~

wat i feel now?
the answer is im hungry!
wat im doing now?
writing a novel for my love one.
am i at class?
didt come 2 class. thinking about 2 ponteng 4 the whole day.
is tat okey?
i think so..coz im thinking about finish up my assignment.
did my mom knw?
no she's not! i told her tat i dont hav class 2day.

It's Monday and i MISS my HUN!

2day is monday. as usuall my monday always messy. everymorning mesty kelam kabot bgun nk siap 2 class. time 2 lah smue nye xjmp. time 2 lah rase, 'weekday is suck, i hate weekday!'. but wat 2 do.. as a student smue 2 kne face. monday always be the day tat i felt so tired with the class. FYI, every monday, my class start at 8.30 and finish at 7..tat is y i feel so tired 2day. usually mlm 2, mmg dh x lrt nk wat keje or any assignment.
tp....even im so bz.. i still cant get u out of my head. i miss u already hun. i feel like i want na call u, but i cant. how r u doing 2day yea? hope u doing fine. hope u dont feel stress about wat happend last nyte. 2 be honest, im kind da feel sad, coz if i knw tat u going back late, boley kite buke same2. rase geram dgn dia(u knw who im talking about ryte?)
actually, im so jelez.. i cant tell y. not bcoz i dont want 2 but i just cant write it here. our relationship is so complicated. dont want 2 think about it. just want na live a happy life with u. watever is, i dont want na burden u hunny. hope everything doing well.
anyway, i working on our love story which u want me 2 write 4 u. its kinda hard 2 take tyme, 2 remember all the memory tat we been through 2gether b4.coz it been 2 years we seperated b4 we met 3 months ago. but im working on it. i try my best 2 make sure u can read it at least 4 the capter 1! hehe..
so, u better come home soon as possible coz im sure u xsbr nk bce our story!
anyway hunny, been far frm u always the hardest thing. hope 2 c u soon sweet heart!!

P/S : remember hunny, dont naughty2 especially nyte! hehe :p love u~

my PRINCE

ape sy bwt arini?
arini sy kuar bsme prince yg tersayang! sronok sgt!
coz im finally can met him after a few week he wasnt here. cian dia, sy th dia pnt but yet, he still try 2 find tyme 2 spend with me. im so glad ble tgk he was okey. glad 2 knw tat he doing fine there. it wasnt a date like a couple used to hav. we just hang out and hav a chit chat. no movies or anything. we just hav fun talk n sometimes a serious talk. i love to see him when he laught. im happy tat i can make him happy. with no doubt. i really love him. anyway, thanx hunny bie! 4 spending ur tyme 4 me... i really appreciated it. plz take care of ur self there k? dont naughty2. stdy tau jgn lupe! this tyme, i wont cry.. i little bit hard. but im okey. im gonna miss u hunny!!!!! see u another 2 week k? take care~

with love --> bie, mmmmuuuuaaahhh!!!!!!!

P/S: okey, gtg now, lot of work 2 do..look like someone cant sleep 2day.

whoooo.....trying to calm down

im so pissed off. im sooo hurt. again, u break the promise. i been waiting and waiting and waiting. u r so unfair. u should considered my feeling! who am i 2 u?? y im always be the last option 4 u?? im not the one who make the promise but u!!!now wat? wat is ur excuse? wat now? am i the one who dont understand o u the one who just cant undrstand me?? i dont ask many. i just want a day frm u. its been 3week u r there, wit ur life. i just need a day. is tat hard?? is tat so hard 4 u? if u cant give me ur time, then dont tell me tat u r going home. coz i dont even feel tat u r here. it seem like u been there since the last tyme i met u. look im not forcing. but i just....im just so mad, im hurt.. u promise me. if u r in my place, wat u going 2 do? u tell me.wat im going 2 do? when the time u told me tat u going home. im so excited. my face keep smiling. im kinda crazy. just cant wait 2 c u. counting day by day. but then? wat do i get? nothing! i should xpected diz ryte. look 2 ur other promise. want 2 call me at least 2 times a week. r u keep ur word?? no u r not! should i begging for ur appreciation? im nothing but a rubbish 2 u! im seriusly hurt. trust me, i never felt diz way.

unstable emotion

im not really in a gud mood. im easily get mad ryte now. so its better for all of you 2 stay away frm me 4 awhile. coz u guys hav no idea wat im capable 2 do when im mad. just go.i need a break.

bsok jalan2~

wee...!! sok sy d plan bsame na2! cant wait 2 see her. it been along since the last tyme we met. we planing 2 have a day of skate 2morrow! hehe..finaly dpt gak maen skate ngn na2. dh lame nk plan tp d je hal. recently, my life mcm kinda boring and im kind da feel like alone ranger. but i wont allow it 2 happen again. im gona keep strong and be happy through out of my life! (yey..!!!). i kinda hav some plan in my life. im thinking about 2 enter swimming class in uitm. so i can make some fren and n make my life buzy. i plan 2 stdy hard, but i dont knw y, i become lazy diz sem. not concentrate on my study.not intrested with wat im doing now. not even started my group project. omg! wats happen 2 me??wake up sya2!!!!! there is lot of work 2 be finish!u cant just relax and be cool on tat. saingan sgt sengit diz sem. i hav 2 work hard. plz wake up sya. do some plan! stdy! there is so many test next week! so wat u waiting 4? go bath n start study! yeah..tats wat im going 2 do now.so..gtg bye! wish me luck!

HapPy biRthDaY HuNny!!!

today is 4th august 2010, and it is my bf birthday..
happy birthday sweet heart! hope u r here...
since he is not here so i cant celebrate it with him.. but its okey.. i hope he enjoying his bday 2day. i wish he always happy.. success on his life.. and be a person tat gonna make his family proud!
he such a lovely bf. i miss him screaming n singging in the car. talk like a robot. listen 2 his nagging. holding my hand. huging me tight. he is the guy that can stand with my "kerenah". dia sgt pnybr dgn sy. he is the person tat can make me cry so hard just bcoz he's going 2 study. he is the person tat can make me smile everytime i think about him. he is the guy tat can make me sit in the car for hours with him at his place, where he called it as 'tempat yang menenagkan'. he is the guy tat make me feel safe everytime im with him. the guy tat i proud to be next with, to show the world tat im his girl. i really2 miss him. i miss him so much. look.. im crying everytime i write something about him. i really wish tat i can celebrate his bday. the one who gonna wake up early to make breakfast on his bday. wake him up n kizz him with the wish of happy birthday.
hunny...bie really miss u.. i miss everything about u.. plz come home.. i cant wait 4 u 2 come home. i hav a suprise waiting 4 u.. i miss u bday boy..

P/S : hunny..if u read this, do this 4 me.. close ur eyes.. imagine me infront of u.. huging u..n wishing u 'happy birthday sweet heart'.. then u open ur eyes,find a miror n kiz it 4 me. lastly, i want na say.. I LOVE U HUNNY!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTDAY!!

pengajaran dalam hidup~

arini, mcm2 yg terjadi pd sy. but in the same time, i learn frm it. i learn tat i hav 2 stay strong, 2 be calm in handling any situation and learn tat being alone is not a big matter.. ad owg pnh ckp, things happen 4 a reason, n i trust tat. uni life sometimes cruel. i cant really get along with them in uni. b4 diz, i cant da afraid 2 be alone, but now, aftr wat happen, i dont mind 2 be alone. coz the truth is, im not alone, i hav my family, i hav my beloved bf and i have my best friends around me. so i dont really alone in diz world. i hav 2 stay strong,wat ever it is..i hav 2 be independent just like my bf n my friends said.
wat im going 2 do now is, keep my self bz with study, be nice 2 people coz when we b nice, people gonna do the same thing like we do. im going na b a strong girl.. very strong girl. dunia ni mcm roda, yg berade d bwh x kn sntiase brade d bwh..jd kite kne ushe, tok brade d ats. so tat owg xpndg rendah kt kite.
to everyone who under estimate me, u better watch out, coz im coming..

y bloging???

person who r dont own blog must wonder,y people bloging?? every person hav their own reason y. so do i.... im bloging not for people 2 read. but its more to expression my though and wat i feel. so.. diz blog not really for people 2 read. just myb few of my close fren who knew about diz existent. diz blog is the story of my life. me with my beloved boyfren, me with my family, me with my fren and me with everyone around me. so diz blog is knida boring. but who cares?? its my blog anyway. so 4 those who doesnt like it, u r pleasure 2 go..tq~

sy rindu dia!!

sy sgt bz skrg ni. but yet, sy ttp nk post something. br je last friday dia call. tp sy dh start rindu kan dia. ble dgr suare dia. bwt sy rase nk g sane n hug dia puas2!!!
hunny rindu nye b kat u! hope u doing fine there. tc k? jgn lupe study, n jgn naughty2 k? love u hunny bie!

janji saye ^_*

sblm hunny sy g, sy dh janji spnjg ketiadaan dia, sy akn rajin bljr. jd arini, sy akn mule stdy n siap kn kje2 tutor sy dgn pnuh smgt! jd chaiyok2!!! tp sblm 2 sy nk ckp..
2 my hunny : i love u n miss u soooo much!!! muah2!!

when the time he need 2 go~

it was a full of tears last nyte. i cried so hard, i cant even remember when is the last tyme i cried tat hard. im so sad, to let him go. yesterday was the last day i spend with him. the only guy in my heart. i knw it is not only hard 4 me, but i believe it hard to him too. i try 2 play cool last nyte, but when the tyme i hug him, my tears fall down. i dont want him go. i want him 2 stay wit me. i love him, tats all i knw. 2 let him go is the hardest part of my life. eventhou is not meant 4 ever, yet i still sad. i never be apart frm him. so is difficult to accept tat im going 2 be alone 4 a while. im scared without him. im thinking, wat im going 2 do, wat my life going 2 be without him by my side. i was touch when hu said, "if u need me, put ur hand on ur chest, listen 2 ur heart beat, bcoz tat is me,closed 2 u".so there is nothing 4 me 2 worried about. there is so many memories build by us, n every single chapter is very mean 2 me. when i saw his eyes, there is tears inside, i knw he want 2 cry, but he stand strong, he dont want me 2 c. but at tat moment im happy, knowing tat he love me. i knw he love me so much. he promise 2 call me everytime he free. promise 2 get back n c me every month.i knw he leave 4 a reason, to continue his stdy. n im always hope 4 the best 4 him. and i will wait no matter how long it take. hun.. i really miss u ryte now.. i feel like i want 2 cry.. it so hard 4 me.. i was wonder if u miss me 2..i was wonder if u thinking of me ryte now.. come back soon yea..coz im always waiting u.love u huuny bie~ XOXO

is all about HER

i knew it. its all about her. in ur head, is all about her. u really make my eyes open. at beginning i thought it not tat matter. but now, everything changed. u dont really need me. i made my decision. thnx

GOT IT

kon0n nye nk siap kn assignment. tp nmpk ny assignment 2 sgt ssh. tensyen btol la. ke sbnrnye ak yg pk bnde 2 ssh? mls la nk pk arini. arini mcm xbest. everything x best. myb ssb ak mmg xd mood kot.
tbe2 rase cpt plak mase brlalu, arini dh sabtu, sok ahad, kne g module. gler xbest, buang mase je pergi, bkn pnting pown tp nk xnk kne g gak. ye r t xpsl2 kne repeat. rase bodo la arini, without notice, ak rase ak mcm tgh tnggu something. but till now, there is no news about 'it'. i think i got it. myb yea, 'it' try 2 tell me something. which is, i hav to stop waiting, in other word, game over!
am i mad? am i sad? should i? am i deserve to feel tat way? 2 be honest, i feel sad.. mad.. but wat can i do? nothing ryte? so..diam je kot. just, laen kali keep ur promise. is't so hard 2 do tat? just dont lie 2 me. just be honest. rase mcm kejam sgt. ak rase dia kejam sgt.dh la, drop it. im gonna b okey. im used wit it.

p/s: next tyme, just telling me the truth, even its hard, i can handle it.i will mad. definittly, but at least u give me chance 2 mad at you. but now, i dont even hav chance to say something. it just unfair.

missing????

i been waiting for quite long now. but yet, i still xnmpk bayang u. where hav u been? plz, enough wit your excuse. is doesnt take u a years 2 grab a phone to text o call me. y its 2 hard 4 u. seriusly, u make me wonder if u r really love me. witout u notice, u are running away from me. i yold u b4 ryte, if u want 2 end diz, just tell me. we doit on the gud way. u r going back diz sunday. u promise 2 meet me b4 u go. but its friday now, n i still dont knw wats happen wit u. i hate waiting. u knw tat ryte. watever la. its up 2 u. do wat u want.

thinking 2 much!

rase moody lately.myb coz im thinking 2 much. tp ak sgt2 tkot. if ape yg ak pk kn 2 akn blaku. mcm mane nk tros kn idop? mcm ne dgn my study? how bout my parent? diorg mesty mrh n kecewa gler dgn ak. YA ALLAH... bntu la ak. ak th ak bkn seorg yg baek. tp kali ni, ak btol2 memohon prtolongan. ak dh bwt byk silap. bnyk sgt2. tlg la jauh kn ak dr pe yg ak pk kn 2. TOLONG LA........

note 2 my beloved bf..

if only i can tell u what i feel now. i seriusly want 2 cry. just pretend tat everything okey. i nvr thought tat im going to love u as much i did now. i love u. i seriusly love u. u make my life meaningfull. u cheer me up.
plz take care hunny..
i knw its our hard tyme.
but we gonna make it.
nothing can stop us.
hav a faith on ur self. i will always with u. 2 support u..

p/s : love..we got love, no one can take tat frm us. no matter wat.
love you hunny~

my great company!

today is my best fren birthday, name dia nana! she such a great person 2 me. always there whenever i need her. in any circumstance, she always knw wat 2 say. we r in the same class during high school. but kitorg mule rpt since we r in matrix. never xpected 2 b close like diz. btol pepatah yg mngatakn "nothing is impossible!"..
there r so many thing we shared 2 gether. even bnde yg xtrpk tok d kongsi.
the best thing about her is, dia xpnh jemu dgr luahan ati ak. xpnh muak dgn tangisan ak. xpnh pnt dgn prangai ak, yg sememang nye akn wat owg pning. i can share everything ble dgn dia, something yg ak xley wat ble dgn owg laen. she helped me not only in my personal problem, wkt study kat matrix pown dia sntiase d support ak. kitorg bljr same2. ingt lg wkt nk dkt2 exam. dia lah yg bg ak smgt tok bljr. dia ajr ak bnde yg ak xphm. dia mcm enzyme yg enhance my body tok stdy! haha..
dr dlu smpi skrg, i always admire her, dgn smgt dia, every single word yg kuar dr mulot dia always positive. sometimes, even ak wat keje gler, dia xpnh mrh.. tp dia sntiase sokong, asl kn ak th mane yg trbaek. tp ble dia rase ak dh mule jauh trsimpang, dia mesty dtg, bkn tok mrh.. tp tok berikn kate2 yg sgt dalam mksdnye. xperlu tinggi kn suare, xperlu tok brmasam muke..
to nana.. tq 4 being the great company, 4 being shoulder 4 me 2 cry on..
be proud of ur self, coz u r definitly the great person! no matter wat people said, i always trust u. remember, u dont need miracle 2 shine, coz u already a diamond tat wont fade n will keep shining through out life!
again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet heart! may u always n always b a great person!!!

with love,
sya2~

IF ONLY i hav a normal relationship

ble pk2 blk, ak pnye relationship dgn dia, pelik ckit.. we r not like the normal couple. there r few things tat we cant do 2gether. diz is bcoz we hav 2 take care others feeling. not 2 b complaint just sometimes feel jelous wit other fren who had a normal relationship. its a challenge 2 me. n sometimes kinda hard. but im okey.. ( but my fren ckp, went someone say, "im ok" it shown tat something is not ok!, really?? ). watever it is, diz is wat i wanted, so i hav 2 accept it.

shopping!!!

diz is yesterday pnye story, i cant publish it yesterday due 2 some problem.. hehe..

"its a long day" kate2 dr bf ku. bgun d saat hujan membasahi bumi. mls2 je nk bgon. mandy pown tkot2 je sbb sejuk. tp bgun gak coz dh janji ngn dia nk g beli brg. agak proud gak ngn dia sbb dia brjaye bgon d awl pg sungguh pown xbrape nk awl. tp bkn sng nk bgun wkt hujan2. siap2 tok kuar. seperti biase sy memerlukn mase yg lame untok brsiap. biase lah, name pown girl. lps siap, dia dtg ambek. kami menuju ke sunway pyramid. perancangan adlh tok membeli brg keperluan ku yg sesetengah nye x brape nk perlu. mule2 mcm sng je nk pilih brg. tp bile msok je bab beli ksot n beg, ia memerlu kn mase yg sgt pnjg smpi ksmue kdai ksot sy msok. d yg msok bnyk kali. malu jugak sy sbnrnye. tp d sbb kn kepuasan yg maximum yg sy ingin kan. sy tebal kn juge muke sy. sy th, dia pown mesty tebal kn muke tmn sy. hehe. tp ble sy tgk dia arini, sy kagum.. bkn smue org dpt thn ngn sy. tp dia sgt brsbr. myb dia pk, kitorg xth smpi ble. so kitorg manfaat kn mase yg d.. tp ape2 pown, sy gembire.. ble dia dsisi sy.. ape2 pown, thnx hunny for company me! love u so much dear!!!!!!!

"dEStiNY"

life seem 2 b complicated recently. everything seem 2 b tought.cant really tell wat is exactly the problem coz no one can understand. coincident sometimes gud, but sometimes bring u troubles. it may sometimes called destiny. but in my situation i dont knw wat should i called it. sometimes we just cant hav wat we want. sometimes we changed just bcoz we want them 2 love us better. but through experienced, i dont think it was a gud idea. every person is a different person. myb being ur self at the first place would help u going through. myb im being 2 paranoid about tat. afraid to lose another man in my life. but tat was me. a person who always acting o having a different personality at different time. i dont knw y, im not confident as i am b4. afraid 2 walk bside u. thinking tat im out of ur league. n not suited u. tat is y i keep saying 'i cant'. being wit me only coz u troubles. n i dont want na b tat person. u being bz make me think tat u dont love me anymore. my thought separate me frm u. is tat me who thinking 2 much o it just true about wat im thinking? if it wasnt true n im thinking 2 much, then correct me. coz i need u. im not ready to lose u. if losing u is the destiny i hav 2 faced, it going to b the hard work then ( hard 2 fix it ).we met 4 a reason, n i hope it is a gud one. give me some clue o sign so tat i knw.

P/S : They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices.But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.

my 20th birthday~

tp tbe2 rase nk update blog. since blk dr PD lg nk update, tp xd mase. my tyme bz wit working n sleep! hehe....
im celebrated my birthday in PD wit the one i love. it was a great moment. im so happy wit it. walking along the beach. cooked for him. spend 2 day wit him. ikot kn mcm xcukup, but wat 2 do, i hav 2 work on the next day.back 2 my PD trip. it was a first tyme i went 2 holiday wit my bf i meant my new bf! haha..
i wat a beautiful. bgun pagi, kemas2 beg..wake him up. he pick me up n i was so hungry at tat tyme, try finding a place 2 eat but smue ttp. finally we went 2 one of the restoren tat we used 2 go b4. mkn nasi lemak! peh..sgt kenyang. then tros kn prjlnan ke PD. im a co pilot anyway, n tat is the reason y we miss the junction 2 PD n hav 2 take more hours to get there ( im a bad co pilot isnt? ) but wat 2 do? hehe. we arrived, n finally in the hotel. check in, kemas2 n get rest 4 while. ptg 2 he ask me 2 the beach. wats the point 2 went there if just want na spend tyme in hotel ryte? so i say yes lets go baby! d sbb kn x mkn lunch lg, i eat burger which d jual kat tepi pantai 2. then g jln2. it was a beautiful day. holding hand, take a picture. rase romantic plak.. ( blushing..) hang out kat c2 smpi lewat ptg.ingt kan nk tros blk, tp we think it is better if we buy something 4 tat nyte. we plan 2 do a bbq n try finding a place 2 shopping but unfortunately, all the chicken is sold out? can i say tat? ye la, smue ayam pon xd jual, jlu d pown mcm dh x elok. so just buy some hotdoh n few thing in case the guys hungry at the middle of the nyte. to be truth, i feel like im his wife. jln same2 pegang bakul cri brg dapur. haha its so sweet. mcm husband n wife! smpi hotel, rehat jap then the guys mcm lapar. so nk x nk i hav 2 cook. n it was a first tyme im cooked 4 guys. it taste gud ryte hunny? u better say yes, o u hav 2 sleep at the outside! haha. i wasnt gud chef but i cooked it wit all my heart! while i was cooking, he bz wit his pancing. wat 2 do,tat is wat he love 2 do. n i support it. it was a great nyte, we dont really sleep. we talk, we laugh, we look at each other. then we dcide 2 go out to the beach again wit his frends, maen kejar2 tepi pantai smpi smpot!haha. then g bungkus nasi. suddenly i get stomatch ache.i try 2 find my eno tp x jmp, kne mrh gak dgn dia sbb dia kate cuai.hehe..tp i knw dia mrh sbb syg. kn hun?? then ble smpi hotel still xjmp eno 2, then dia kne la kuar blk beli kn eno sbb prot sgt2 sakit. cian dia.. he was a great company, dia bagi mkn ubt,suap kn nasi.. he is so concerned about me.n he also keep saying 'happy birthday' 2 me n i just smile~..i feel much more better afrt tat n we spend our tyme kat branda, looking 4 the sunrise n had a breakfast there. tat morning, he help me doing the breakfast. again, it wasnt a great breakfast but yet, he finished it 4 me. dh mkn2, kitorg msok tdo, yela..dr smlm x tdo2..bsok nye bgun ( smiling... ) mandy2, kemas brg2, we hav 2 check out. dh check out, kitorg jln2 kat PD. mkn2. tp x mandy pantai. sbb mls nk tukar baju. so just jln2 n tgkp gmbr.mkn ice cream kat ice room.just spend tyme 2gether.then ptg 2 blk.. mlm 2 smpt g tgk bola kat shah alam b4 dia antr blk umah. it was tired but im soooo happy. n not 2 forget, it was also the first tyme i g tmpt bnyk mainan2 2. pe eh name dia. xingt la. haa..fun fair name dia! finally i went 2 fun fair aftr my age was 20!haha.. but the most important things is, it was a most valuable tyme, wonderful holiday, n will alway be memorized!

me n him~

25/05 where my new chapter begin...
tat is the day where he started our relationship. it just 18 day.. but it really meaningful! kitorg spend most of the tyme 2gether. if i can upload the pic tat we r together. but i cant do tat.but, its okey, coz i capture it in my memories.. of cz i have it on my hp! hehe
my result just come out yesterday. alhamdullilah, it quite gud. n we celebrate 2gether at genting! hehe.. sjuk gler kot. nsib baek dia d. haha.
im happy... god, plz dont take him away frm me!

love~love~love~

i been way 2 bz lately. wit work n wit my life. owg myb kate ak gler, but the truth is, i am crazy. crazy of him! br prasan yg ak sgt bz sbnrnye, xd mase 4 my fren. ari2 keje, cuty 1 ari je. ble d mase, i just spend my day wit him. dia ambek ak keje, dia antr ak keje. kdg2 ksian gak kat dia, yela..pnt2 pown still nk pick up ak. tp he said tat he fine with it. happy 2 c me. n im happy 2 c him 2!
i think, i spend a lot of my time wit him. asal d mase je,ak mesty dgn dia. i dont want 2 think about any other things, i just want 2 b happpy. cuty dia x lame, so nk gune kn sebaik mungkin. he text me in the middle of nyte last nyte, asking if im ok, he had a nyte mare. i said i was fine, nothing 2 worried about. n then he said, i love u. n i believe tat he knw tat i love him 2! i really do. he just knw how 2 treat me.. we r going 2 holiday diz week! i cant wait 4 tat. do some crazy thing. just love it!k la, hav work 2morrow, will be continue! haha..