wats going on wit me??

diz is really funny. just not me. sya2 xyakin dgn dri sndri?? wat happen?? nana.. i wish u r here. i want na text u. but afraid tat i will disturb u. mcm mane ni. na.. serabot nye otak! knp la ak ternmpk facebook 2. e...benci!!! seriusly..i keep thinking about it. is like, y me? i hav nothing kot. just not suited him. she is better than me. u got me or not?? am i thinking 2 much? i mean..am i jelez or something? no im not!i just... wat ever la. mls nk pk. xley write lebih2. t mesty dia bce. i call u 2nyte ok na2? yea.. i call u.

rindu awk..

know wat.. i really2 miss u...
wat should i do..? hurm...
seriusly,i rase u dh lupe i.. even i keep telling my self tat u will never forget me, but i.... hmmm... npe u xcontact i? it been a week. its unfair ryte? there is a lot of thing tat i want na share wit u. sometimes ble bnde 2 dh lame happen, i dh terlupe pe yg i nk share dgn u. i th u suh i tnggu u. i th u dh nk blk ari jumaat ni. n i cant wait. i cant wait 2 mrh2 u! i rase mcm something bisik kat i ckp "xpe2..blk t siap dia!" hee..
tp.. t ble u d kat sni mesty u bz jugak. i th.. t mesty mcm ari 2. i just knew it. hurm.. lantak la mls nk pk. i rindu u pown kat cni, u bkn nye th. u bkn rindu i. tp i rindu u sgt2 ni. mcm mane nk wat eh. nk tdo la. sok kne bgun siap kn assignmnet. i tdo dlu..anyway..recently i been dreaming about u. dlm mimpi i dpt jmp u.. u hug i.. i rindu u hug i.. seriusly I MISS U HUNNY! cpt la blk......................

sunday~

diz is sunday pnye story..
wat im doing on last sunday??
im seriusly damn buzy on last sunday. kemas2 rumah.. raye kn dh nk dkt. so.. mmg brkerja keras ari ahad ari 2.
diz year, my house in a new look! me n my family decided to painting our house. so on last sunday kitorg begin with white colour as the base colour. so in couple of days, kitorg will finish up with the colours we chose with the agreement of all members in this house..heheeee...
myb coz im working too hard which coz me to fall sick during nyte. i got my asthma attack. im seriusly cant breath. its been a long tyme x kne asthma attack. mcm mnae x kne asthma attack, siap b'cat bagai. dh th x ley wat keje2 trok, wat gak.. pdn muke sy! but im getting better now! yeyy!!!!

baju raye

raye dh nk dkt kn? tp sy xd lg baju raye..so mcm mane? hurm... nmpknye kelam kabut la t nk cri baju raye. tema thn ni oren, jd kne la cri baju kurung yg brwrne oren atau seakan2 oren..huuu... sy ingt nk cri baju ngn bf sy.. tp mane tah pergi bf sy ni.. dh lupe sy ker? hurm... xmungkin..sbb dia sgt syg sye! ("hee..prasan nye!" mesty dia tgh ckp mcm 2 ble bce) tp sy th dia mmg syg sy! (ini adlh kyataan!) ape pown dia mesty tmn sy..xkire...
anyway vc text smlm..confirm kn yg 4 aribln nnt nk buke same2..so how? jd x nk tmn bie? bie nk beli brg.. jgn ckp "sorry..xdpt nk join..dia ajak beli brg dgn dia"
no way i nk kate "its okey.. u g la tmn dia.." not again okey?
im going back 2 kg on wednesday coz raye on friday kn? so.. u kne la tmn i ari sabtu, ahad, isnin, selase n rabu sblm i blk 2 yeh? (hee...demand kn? suke ati i lah..)

hurm..ok 2 be truth tat is wat i want.. but dont worry i kn ley tolak ansur. anytime u free kite g la beli brg same2.. sbb i th ssh nk ikot mcm pe yg i nk sbb 'our' situation. so dont worry about tat k?
gtg k love you~

not feeling well~

im sick...
just 2 let u knw..
im so dizzy..
feeling weak and im thinking of u..
wonder if u care bout me.

....thats all....

where r u?

hey sweet heart! where r u? been bz wit test? recently bie mcm mls je nk stdy.. hurm.. mcm mane eh nk bwt spye jd rajin?? smpi skrg pown xabis2 lg stdy property managment. diz thursday d test. n diz thursday gak d presentation for titas=ctu. ala yg bljr psl etnik n budaye 2. seriusly boring. i dont even hav the text book. everytime kelas 2, i bkn dgr pown. i just on9..dgr lagu..so i kinda lost. trok kn i? but i think it is not 2 late ryte? so im thinking about abiskan stdy for my test so 2morrrow i can concentrate on my presentation for titas=ctu.. yea..tats wat im going 2 do!
anyway..wat r u doing now yeh? td bkk pose pe je? arini ibu msk lauk tomyam.. tringat wkt mkn tom yam dgn u ari 2. next tyme kite g sane lg yeh? i nk msk kn tok u tp xth.. tp t i bljr. heheheeee...
u... u ingt x i d gado ngn fida dlu? sbb i g holiday ngn u n bkn spend tyme dgn dia on my birthday? smpi skrg i x ckp ngn dia. mcm mane yeh. i dh say sorry. tp.... xpe la..myb nnt ok la kot.( i th pe u pk..but i xpnh pown slh kn u..is not ur fault ok? so dont worry)
1 more thing.. cuty sem ni kite g holiday kat langkawi nk?? x pown g pangkor je? u pk la..t ble u dh dcide g th i k?
k la i nk mandy..nk stdy..u pown jgn lupe stdy k? ingt x pe i kate dlu? there is never too late 4 u..
love u dear~

to my dear~

i been so busy lately..hav no time to write on this blog or ur novel. thnx god my problem with spss is over. i spend my weekend at cyber cafe finish up the assignment as i can only installed the software using their desktop.
however, there is a lot of work coming 4 me! im so tired.. diz weekend i didnt hav enough tyme 2 rest. n i hav test on this coming Thursday tp still x abis stdy lg. kinda worried. so how ur test? it happen diz week ryte? i hope u can performed well.
i wonder how u doing there.. hope u doing great. miss u so much.. cant wait 2 c u.
anyway, ari 2 on the way 2 cc at nyte with my little brother, i saw a firework. its beautiful! wishing tat we can see it 2gether next tyme! :D
im keep thinking about u recently even hav no tyme 2 write 4 u. so dont worry, no hot guy! hehe..
anyway.. its holiday ryte 4 diz coming friday? r u going home o not? hoping tat u r back, but i afraid tat u r wasting ur money coz the next week is already sem break. its better 4 u to wait till tat. its okey..i can wait..
anyway.. nana n vc ajak kuar.. u knw vc ryte? ( tin, bear2,ka2,mia n of coz nana).their bring their bf along. myb amat will be there 2. thinking about to bring u with me. can u company me?? diorg ajak berbuke same2 n hav some shopping 4 hari raye. remember u promise to be with me all along diz mid sem break?? hoping u 2 fulfill ur promised.. ;p
2 be honest..diz ramadhan n hari raye are so meaningful 4 me. coz i got u bside me. i keep singing hari raye songs smpi my sis pown tegur y im sooo xcited about it. but i just smile.. tp dlm hati ckp " coz tahun ni u d ngn i! " weeee...!
knw wat im doing now?? i putting my hand on my chest..listen 2 my heart beat. it sign tat i miss u. i really miss u hunny! hope u missing me 2! love u hunny bie~

PS: im always pray 4 ur success.. gud luck n chaiyok2!! ^_^

stress out!

im so stress out ryte now. i got a problem with my assignment. argh! mcm mane ni. mane nk cri software 2! npe xdpt download ni. mcm mane nk wat assignment klu x ley download. submmition dh la on tuesday. lot of work 2 do. plz god help me!

everyday my love 4 u is growing...

im sleepy and so tired, coz its a long day 2day..but yet, i still want na write something.if not, i feel like part of me is missing..
hunny..diz is for you~
day by day..my love for u seem not going 2 be end.
being loved by u, make my self feel like im floating in the air.
being pampered by u, make me feel like a flower which blooming in the morning day.
being with u, is the precious moment i ever had.
talking 2 u never make my self out of idea even for the whole day night.
everytime i woke up in the morning with my eyes open, there is only ur smiling face i wish i can see.
everytime u touch me.. there is a magical power all around my body.
everytime u kiss me, it feel like im in heaven.
if i hav only 1 day left 2 live, is with u im going 2 spend my day.
u r so mean 4 me. even this words can't really tell how much i love you.
never say that u have no one in ur life.
dont ever think tat are alone in diz world...
coz..im here..created 2 company u all your life..
wat ever happend, i will always there 4 u..be ur shoulder 2 cry on.. be a person 2 share how beautiful life is..
i love u hunny..thats all i knw...

full of suprised!!!

hahaha...im smiling now.. kind da shock.. coz u dh d blog! hehe..
but thanks coz at least i knw wat happen 2 u spnjg u xd kt sisi i. want 2 knw something? i just finished my presentation. for building services. remember i told u b4?? lecturer puji i! sronok nye! at first i risau gler about this assignment. but i think me n my group did well. hope tat kitorg dpt mrkh tinggi. thanx 4 all my group members 4 all their support and commitment!
back 2 u... u always make me smile ryte?? yes u did. now i dh ley th pe yg u wat kat sane. keep updating yea? u really make me thinking of u. cant get rid out of it! anyway...npe ponteng kelas? next tyme g kelas k? dont ponteng2! n..one more thing. jgn asyik ngn poker je. i jelaz!! hehe..

P/S: love u hun! sooo much!!!!!!!!!! take care yea! jgn lupe contact i tau! mmmuaahh2!!!

y i miss u so much 2day...

ok..2 be honest i hate feeling this. i hate that i miss u.
im seriusly miss u 2day. npe u stdy jauh sgt.. cpt la practical.. i nk u d kt cni..!
mcm budak2 kn i? e...xsuke nye. rase mcm nk g sane je. i xnk pduli pe owg ckp. yg i th i nk u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really want na hug u.. br 2 hari.. im going 2 b dead witout u!
plz come home!!! plz....!!!

P/S: I dh siap kan chapter 1!hee... mesty u suke kn? so cpt la blk!

lapar~ponteng~novel~

wat i feel now?
the answer is im hungry!
wat im doing now?
writing a novel for my love one.
am i at class?
didt come 2 class. thinking about 2 ponteng 4 the whole day.
is tat okey?
i think so..coz im thinking about finish up my assignment.
did my mom knw?
no she's not! i told her tat i dont hav class 2day.

It's Monday and i MISS my HUN!

2day is monday. as usuall my monday always messy. everymorning mesty kelam kabot bgun nk siap 2 class. time 2 lah smue nye xjmp. time 2 lah rase, 'weekday is suck, i hate weekday!'. but wat 2 do.. as a student smue 2 kne face. monday always be the day tat i felt so tired with the class. FYI, every monday, my class start at 8.30 and finish at 7..tat is y i feel so tired 2day. usually mlm 2, mmg dh x lrt nk wat keje or any assignment.
tp....even im so bz.. i still cant get u out of my head. i miss u already hun. i feel like i want na call u, but i cant. how r u doing 2day yea? hope u doing fine. hope u dont feel stress about wat happend last nyte. 2 be honest, im kind da feel sad, coz if i knw tat u going back late, boley kite buke same2. rase geram dgn dia(u knw who im talking about ryte?)
actually, im so jelez.. i cant tell y. not bcoz i dont want 2 but i just cant write it here. our relationship is so complicated. dont want 2 think about it. just want na live a happy life with u. watever is, i dont want na burden u hunny. hope everything doing well.
anyway, i working on our love story which u want me 2 write 4 u. its kinda hard 2 take tyme, 2 remember all the memory tat we been through 2gether b4.coz it been 2 years we seperated b4 we met 3 months ago. but im working on it. i try my best 2 make sure u can read it at least 4 the capter 1! hehe..
so, u better come home soon as possible coz im sure u xsbr nk bce our story!
anyway hunny, been far frm u always the hardest thing. hope 2 c u soon sweet heart!!

P/S : remember hunny, dont naughty2 especially nyte! hehe :p love u~

my PRINCE

ape sy bwt arini?
arini sy kuar bsme prince yg tersayang! sronok sgt!
coz im finally can met him after a few week he wasnt here. cian dia, sy th dia pnt but yet, he still try 2 find tyme 2 spend with me. im so glad ble tgk he was okey. glad 2 knw tat he doing fine there. it wasnt a date like a couple used to hav. we just hang out and hav a chit chat. no movies or anything. we just hav fun talk n sometimes a serious talk. i love to see him when he laught. im happy tat i can make him happy. with no doubt. i really love him. anyway, thanx hunny bie! 4 spending ur tyme 4 me... i really appreciated it. plz take care of ur self there k? dont naughty2. stdy tau jgn lupe! this tyme, i wont cry.. i little bit hard. but im okey. im gonna miss u hunny!!!!! see u another 2 week k? take care~

with love --> bie, mmmmuuuuaaahhh!!!!!!!

P/S: okey, gtg now, lot of work 2 do..look like someone cant sleep 2day.

whoooo.....trying to calm down

im so pissed off. im sooo hurt. again, u break the promise. i been waiting and waiting and waiting. u r so unfair. u should considered my feeling! who am i 2 u?? y im always be the last option 4 u?? im not the one who make the promise but u!!!now wat? wat is ur excuse? wat now? am i the one who dont understand o u the one who just cant undrstand me?? i dont ask many. i just want a day frm u. its been 3week u r there, wit ur life. i just need a day. is tat hard?? is tat so hard 4 u? if u cant give me ur time, then dont tell me tat u r going home. coz i dont even feel tat u r here. it seem like u been there since the last tyme i met u. look im not forcing. but i just....im just so mad, im hurt.. u promise me. if u r in my place, wat u going 2 do? u tell me.wat im going 2 do? when the time u told me tat u going home. im so excited. my face keep smiling. im kinda crazy. just cant wait 2 c u. counting day by day. but then? wat do i get? nothing! i should xpected diz ryte. look 2 ur other promise. want 2 call me at least 2 times a week. r u keep ur word?? no u r not! should i begging for ur appreciation? im nothing but a rubbish 2 u! im seriusly hurt. trust me, i never felt diz way.

unstable emotion

im not really in a gud mood. im easily get mad ryte now. so its better for all of you 2 stay away frm me 4 awhile. coz u guys hav no idea wat im capable 2 do when im mad. just go.i need a break.

bsok jalan2~

wee...!! sok sy d plan bsame na2! cant wait 2 see her. it been along since the last tyme we met. we planing 2 have a day of skate 2morrow! hehe..finaly dpt gak maen skate ngn na2. dh lame nk plan tp d je hal. recently, my life mcm kinda boring and im kind da feel like alone ranger. but i wont allow it 2 happen again. im gona keep strong and be happy through out of my life! (yey..!!!). i kinda hav some plan in my life. im thinking about 2 enter swimming class in uitm. so i can make some fren and n make my life buzy. i plan 2 stdy hard, but i dont knw y, i become lazy diz sem. not concentrate on my study.not intrested with wat im doing now. not even started my group project. omg! wats happen 2 me??wake up sya2!!!!! there is lot of work 2 be finish!u cant just relax and be cool on tat. saingan sgt sengit diz sem. i hav 2 work hard. plz wake up sya. do some plan! stdy! there is so many test next week! so wat u waiting 4? go bath n start study! yeah..tats wat im going 2 do now.so..gtg bye! wish me luck!

HapPy biRthDaY HuNny!!!

today is 4th august 2010, and it is my bf birthday..
happy birthday sweet heart! hope u r here...
since he is not here so i cant celebrate it with him.. but its okey.. i hope he enjoying his bday 2day. i wish he always happy.. success on his life.. and be a person tat gonna make his family proud!
he such a lovely bf. i miss him screaming n singging in the car. talk like a robot. listen 2 his nagging. holding my hand. huging me tight. he is the guy that can stand with my "kerenah". dia sgt pnybr dgn sy. he is the person tat can make me cry so hard just bcoz he's going 2 study. he is the person tat can make me smile everytime i think about him. he is the guy tat can make me sit in the car for hours with him at his place, where he called it as 'tempat yang menenagkan'. he is the guy tat make me feel safe everytime im with him. the guy tat i proud to be next with, to show the world tat im his girl. i really2 miss him. i miss him so much. look.. im crying everytime i write something about him. i really wish tat i can celebrate his bday. the one who gonna wake up early to make breakfast on his bday. wake him up n kizz him with the wish of happy birthday.
hunny...bie really miss u.. i miss everything about u.. plz come home.. i cant wait 4 u 2 come home. i hav a suprise waiting 4 u.. i miss u bday boy..

P/S : hunny..if u read this, do this 4 me.. close ur eyes.. imagine me infront of u.. huging u..n wishing u 'happy birthday sweet heart'.. then u open ur eyes,find a miror n kiz it 4 me. lastly, i want na say.. I LOVE U HUNNY!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTDAY!!

pengajaran dalam hidup~

arini, mcm2 yg terjadi pd sy. but in the same time, i learn frm it. i learn tat i hav 2 stay strong, 2 be calm in handling any situation and learn tat being alone is not a big matter.. ad owg pnh ckp, things happen 4 a reason, n i trust tat. uni life sometimes cruel. i cant really get along with them in uni. b4 diz, i cant da afraid 2 be alone, but now, aftr wat happen, i dont mind 2 be alone. coz the truth is, im not alone, i hav my family, i hav my beloved bf and i have my best friends around me. so i dont really alone in diz world. i hav 2 stay strong,wat ever it is..i hav 2 be independent just like my bf n my friends said.
wat im going 2 do now is, keep my self bz with study, be nice 2 people coz when we b nice, people gonna do the same thing like we do. im going na b a strong girl.. very strong girl. dunia ni mcm roda, yg berade d bwh x kn sntiase brade d bwh..jd kite kne ushe, tok brade d ats. so tat owg xpndg rendah kt kite.
to everyone who under estimate me, u better watch out, coz im coming..

y bloging???

person who r dont own blog must wonder,y people bloging?? every person hav their own reason y. so do i.... im bloging not for people 2 read. but its more to expression my though and wat i feel. so.. diz blog not really for people 2 read. just myb few of my close fren who knew about diz existent. diz blog is the story of my life. me with my beloved boyfren, me with my family, me with my fren and me with everyone around me. so diz blog is knida boring. but who cares?? its my blog anyway. so 4 those who doesnt like it, u r pleasure 2 go..tq~

sy rindu dia!!

sy sgt bz skrg ni. but yet, sy ttp nk post something. br je last friday dia call. tp sy dh start rindu kan dia. ble dgr suare dia. bwt sy rase nk g sane n hug dia puas2!!!
hunny rindu nye b kat u! hope u doing fine there. tc k? jgn lupe study, n jgn naughty2 k? love u hunny bie!