smlm kuar..
ngn mamat 2 ah
n i finally knw tat he is really not my type.
i cant b with him.
hensem is not wat im looking for.
is all about someone attitude.
how they bring their self.
n i also realised tat i dont hav 2 b hurry.
someone who r really meant 4 me will come naturally.
n i realised tat he cant b replace n i never though 2 replace him.
he has his own place in my heart. n now.. i think im not ready 4 any man outside there.
i just let tyme decide.
p/s: not celebrating new year. just stay at home alone!uwa~
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
does our brain always thinking??
some of my fren ckp, i think a lot.
n it usually bring problem 2 me.
n honestly, im tired of thinking.
klu korg tgh gosok baju, korg brpk x wkt 2?
about anything? ak benci gosok baju. sbb ak sgt pnt.
bkn je pnt gosok baju, tp otak ak pown pnt sbb byk pk bnde yg xpnting.
ble nk tdo..pe korg bwt?
ak slalu xdpt tdo.. sbb bile ak nk tdo, im doing nothing. so, ak akn brpk.
my fren kat matrix dlu slalu ckp, 'sya, jgn pk bnyk.. ble nk tdo, just bygkn bnde yg indah2 je.. br ley tdo..' tp ak xboley.. sbb 2 ak d mslh tok tdo.
dlu my ex pnh ajar, klu xdpt tdo, byg kan ad byk kambing kat atas, pas2 start counting.. (smile...) klakar plak.. tp ak try mcm yg dia ckp. ist work? tah la.. tp tnx coz at least u came out wit something 2 help me..
hurm.. wat should i do yea..
pnt la asyik mcm ni je. pk trlalu bnyk, smpi jd tkot..
n it usually bring problem 2 me.
n honestly, im tired of thinking.
klu korg tgh gosok baju, korg brpk x wkt 2?
about anything? ak benci gosok baju. sbb ak sgt pnt.
bkn je pnt gosok baju, tp otak ak pown pnt sbb byk pk bnde yg xpnting.
ble nk tdo..pe korg bwt?
ak slalu xdpt tdo.. sbb bile ak nk tdo, im doing nothing. so, ak akn brpk.
my fren kat matrix dlu slalu ckp, 'sya, jgn pk bnyk.. ble nk tdo, just bygkn bnde yg indah2 je.. br ley tdo..' tp ak xboley.. sbb 2 ak d mslh tok tdo.
dlu my ex pnh ajar, klu xdpt tdo, byg kan ad byk kambing kat atas, pas2 start counting.. (smile...) klakar plak.. tp ak try mcm yg dia ckp. ist work? tah la.. tp tnx coz at least u came out wit something 2 help me..
hurm.. wat should i do yea..
pnt la asyik mcm ni je. pk trlalu bnyk, smpi jd tkot..
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
conpius..
how 2 start yea..
anyway, somebody ask 4 hangout 2 morrow.
just 2 of us, n the person is 'he'
yea.. is he..
i dont knw if i like him.
yea admit kitorg dh agak lame knl.
n we do go hang out sometimes.. like always, only 2 of us.
but diz tyme is diffrent, the situation is diffrent.
i feel nervous.. i dont knw if it is gud o bad.
bkn slame ni xpnh kuar ngn dia,tgk wayang smue. tp kali ni mcm.. tah la.
2morrow pown nk tgk wayg, kat tmpt biase.
tah la..tgk la sok.if kuar, yea kuar. if ngak, yea ngak la~
prob solved!
anyway, somebody ask 4 hangout 2 morrow.
just 2 of us, n the person is 'he'
yea.. is he..
i dont knw if i like him.
yea admit kitorg dh agak lame knl.
n we do go hang out sometimes.. like always, only 2 of us.
but diz tyme is diffrent, the situation is diffrent.
i feel nervous.. i dont knw if it is gud o bad.
bkn slame ni xpnh kuar ngn dia,tgk wayang smue. tp kali ni mcm.. tah la.
2morrow pown nk tgk wayg, kat tmpt biase.
tah la..tgk la sok.if kuar, yea kuar. if ngak, yea ngak la~
prob solved!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
bf vs ex-bf
in this case, who do u think will win?
is tat the bf o ex-bf?
diz is not about me. diz is about my friend yg sdg brgelut dgn perasaan nye! (peh! bm yg hbt.. huhu)
cerite nye bgini..
dlu, my fren ni sgt syg bf dia yg skrg ni tlh mnjd ex-bf nye.
hbgn diowg sgt lame. ak pown kagum la tgk!tp..mlg nye, diorg clash sbb.. ak pown kurang pasti.
tp wkt 2 kwn ak gler up sad..mcm dunia dh xd pe.. 2 lah love. hurm...
dh lame pas2.. dia knl ngn sorg mamat ni, agak hensem r.. diorg ok jer..mcm couple2 yg laen.
xlame pas2. dia nye ex-bf muncul kmbali.. jengjengjeng!!
smue kwn2 ak ni trmsok ak pon sdia mklum yg dia sgt syg ex-bf dia dlu..
n ble dh ex bf dia dtg, dia mule la ragu2.
sbb ye r, dia kn dh lame ngn ex-bf dia 2.. myb dia still syg ex-bf dia 2 kot.
2 la yg dia tnye ak 2.. ak mane la th nk jwb. ak sndri pown trumbang ambing! hihi..
tp ble pk blk, ssh jugak. ye r kn, dia byk memory ngn ex-bf dia dlu sbb diorg dh trlalu lame, sdgkan bf dia yg br ni dia br je lg, xsmpi setahun.
ak rase if dia ley ragu2 mean dia xreally love bf dia yg skag ni. n still love dia ex. tp dia kne igt.. ex bf dia pnh wat silap. skang trpulang kat dia, same ad nk truskn ngn bf dia skang o pth blk mcm dlu,ngn ex dia yg dia sndri x pasty ex dia ley ubah perangai o tdak.
ak pown xrety sgt nk comment. but ice, i hope u ley wat kptsn yg trbaik tok dri u. pape pown i sntiase sokong!
p/s : if i, i always give a chance. if kite dh lame dgn dia, dh lame tunggu dia, y not diz tyme..
but if we dont want a risk then forget him. but wat is love without risk ryte?
is tat the bf o ex-bf?
diz is not about me. diz is about my friend yg sdg brgelut dgn perasaan nye! (peh! bm yg hbt.. huhu)
cerite nye bgini..
dlu, my fren ni sgt syg bf dia yg skrg ni tlh mnjd ex-bf nye.
hbgn diowg sgt lame. ak pown kagum la tgk!tp..mlg nye, diorg clash sbb.. ak pown kurang pasti.
tp wkt 2 kwn ak gler up sad..mcm dunia dh xd pe.. 2 lah love. hurm...
dh lame pas2.. dia knl ngn sorg mamat ni, agak hensem r.. diorg ok jer..mcm couple2 yg laen.
xlame pas2. dia nye ex-bf muncul kmbali.. jengjengjeng!!
smue kwn2 ak ni trmsok ak pon sdia mklum yg dia sgt syg ex-bf dia dlu..
n ble dh ex bf dia dtg, dia mule la ragu2.
sbb ye r, dia kn dh lame ngn ex-bf dia 2.. myb dia still syg ex-bf dia 2 kot.
2 la yg dia tnye ak 2.. ak mane la th nk jwb. ak sndri pown trumbang ambing! hihi..
tp ble pk blk, ssh jugak. ye r kn, dia byk memory ngn ex-bf dia dlu sbb diorg dh trlalu lame, sdgkan bf dia yg br ni dia br je lg, xsmpi setahun.
ak rase if dia ley ragu2 mean dia xreally love bf dia yg skag ni. n still love dia ex. tp dia kne igt.. ex bf dia pnh wat silap. skang trpulang kat dia, same ad nk truskn ngn bf dia skang o pth blk mcm dlu,ngn ex dia yg dia sndri x pasty ex dia ley ubah perangai o tdak.
ak pown xrety sgt nk comment. but ice, i hope u ley wat kptsn yg trbaik tok dri u. pape pown i sntiase sokong!
p/s : if i, i always give a chance. if kite dh lame dgn dia, dh lame tunggu dia, y not diz tyme..
but if we dont want a risk then forget him. but wat is love without risk ryte?
Saturday, December 26, 2009
getting worst
recently, my asthma seem like getting worst.
i cant sleep at night. it so difficult 4 me 2 breath.
b4 diz i just taking a pil but now turn 2 use spray.
i cant sleep well. my chest so pain. sometimes i felt like im dying.
even when im writing diz post i still in pain. the class will start soon.. glad tat i just studying in shah alam. so if somehing happen i can just call my dad. but if it keep happen,mean my asthma, it will b so difficult 4 me. recently, even when i went out wit my fren 2 mall pown i need 2 bring my spray. seem like i cant live without that spray.
hurm..i think tats all 4 2nyte. i cant breath smoothly. need 2 go.da~
i cant sleep at night. it so difficult 4 me 2 breath.
b4 diz i just taking a pil but now turn 2 use spray.
i cant sleep well. my chest so pain. sometimes i felt like im dying.
even when im writing diz post i still in pain. the class will start soon.. glad tat i just studying in shah alam. so if somehing happen i can just call my dad. but if it keep happen,mean my asthma, it will b so difficult 4 me. recently, even when i went out wit my fren 2 mall pown i need 2 bring my spray. seem like i cant live without that spray.
hurm..i think tats all 4 2nyte. i cant breath smoothly. need 2 go.da~
Thursday, December 24, 2009
poem..
i'm not thinking about writing a poem but it remind me something.
i just watched spiderman on tv2. it mentioned that if u love someone write him/her a poem.
long tyme ago, there is someone who wrote me a poem. it so touching, it lovely..
i still remember his last phase, it written there
'will u aisyah, be my soul mate'...
but it left as memory..
n just let it b..
i just watched spiderman on tv2. it mentioned that if u love someone write him/her a poem.
long tyme ago, there is someone who wrote me a poem. it so touching, it lovely..
i still remember his last phase, it written there
'will u aisyah, be my soul mate'...
but it left as memory..
n just let it b..
Saturday, December 19, 2009
hellOo2!!
hai~
mane nk start eh??
hurm.. let start about my trip 2 melake 2morrow.
sok ak n my sis, together wit her n his fren nk g melake.
hav some fun during diz holiday.
at beggining x th nk g ke x. but then i call my best buddy..he said, y not.
he said, i should go n hav some fun dr dok kat umah je.
so... i decide 2 go!!
hehe.. well... i promise him 2 take some pic n send it 2 him when im there.
melaka..here i come!
mane nk start eh??
hurm.. let start about my trip 2 melake 2morrow.
sok ak n my sis, together wit her n his fren nk g melake.
hav some fun during diz holiday.
at beggining x th nk g ke x. but then i call my best buddy..he said, y not.
he said, i should go n hav some fun dr dok kat umah je.
so... i decide 2 go!!
hehe.. well... i promise him 2 take some pic n send it 2 him when im there.
melaka..here i come!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
result...
today result kuar..
im not doing well, i just got 3.49 another 0.01 to get dekan.
im so disapointed. very..
evryone seem 2 pass wit excellent result,but 4 me, just medium..
like always.
i will never get chance 2 get anugerah naib cancellor,
its kinda hurt. frustrating..
im not doing well, i just got 3.49 another 0.01 to get dekan.
im so disapointed. very..
evryone seem 2 pass wit excellent result,but 4 me, just medium..
like always.
i will never get chance 2 get anugerah naib cancellor,
its kinda hurt. frustrating..
Friday, December 4, 2009
today, is the day where everything is change
today..
i decided..
today...
is all begin..
where,
no more best friend around me
no more guy tat i crushed to
no more social
it all back 2 before
where i have to follow all the rules
even i my self didnt knw y im doing diz
but diz is wat people want me 2 be
so i just follow wit or without my desire
i'm sad
badly..
feel like i want 2 sleep till the end of my life.
i'm disapointed
i feel terible
no one will understand
but if diz is wat they want
i'll do it.
just hoping tat one day i will get used wit it n accept it..
tat is the end of the story...
i decided..
today...
is all begin..
where,
no more best friend around me
no more guy tat i crushed to
no more social
it all back 2 before
where i have to follow all the rules
even i my self didnt knw y im doing diz
but diz is wat people want me 2 be
so i just follow wit or without my desire
i'm sad
badly..
feel like i want 2 sleep till the end of my life.
i'm disapointed
i feel terible
no one will understand
but if diz is wat they want
i'll do it.
just hoping tat one day i will get used wit it n accept it..
tat is the end of the story...
Thursday, December 3, 2009
hate my dad
i knw it sound harsh
but i dont care. i hate my dad.
he want 2 control all my life
i hav 2 do everything he want me 2 do
i dont hav any freedom.. name je dok kat dlm negara merdeka.huh!
i dont care wat people want 2 say about, it doesnt matter anymore.
i want na do what i want, what i like, not just follow the rule n take my life away from me.
i knw what i do.
just let me find my way, create my life. i cant be the one tat u wish me 2 b dad!
u make the rule ryte?? ok then! but i wont b the same daughter tat u dream of. dont challenge me. u dont knw ur daughter well.
but i dont care. i hate my dad.
he want 2 control all my life
i hav 2 do everything he want me 2 do
i dont hav any freedom.. name je dok kat dlm negara merdeka.huh!
i dont care wat people want 2 say about, it doesnt matter anymore.
i want na do what i want, what i like, not just follow the rule n take my life away from me.
i knw what i do.
just let me find my way, create my life. i cant be the one tat u wish me 2 b dad!
u make the rule ryte?? ok then! but i wont b the same daughter tat u dream of. dont challenge me. u dont knw ur daughter well.
Monday, November 30, 2009
neW hOusE..
hurm...
arini my sis dh dptkn umah tok ak dok 4 next sem. dkt ker? bley la.. ley naek bus. kat seksyen 7.
nmpk nye, 4 next sem ak btol2 kne independent. ak x knl sape2 pown dlm umah 2. xpnh jmp pown lg. but hope their all fine. nnt mesty akn d hari ak kne tinggal bus! haha..
b4 diz ak xpyh naek bus. jln kaki jer.
dh dok luar ni terpakse r byr sewa umah. xdpt la nk brjoli ngn duet yg ak d.. kne mule brjimat! umah yg ak nk dok ni apartment.. ok kot..
ape yg besh dok luar is ak ley wat pe yg ak suke. ley la kuar ngn kimi ari2.. coz kimi dok seky 13.
huhu...
start frm next sem, ak dh xley nk depent kat sape2 dh. ak kne wat smue sndri! ak kne bljr dgn lbh keras! xd lg owg yg ley nk tlg ak if xphm subject 2. coz umah masing2 dh jauh. ak kne tros g jmp prof la klu x th. n ak kne bukti kan yg ak mampu wat smue 2 tanpa bantuan owg laen lg!
inyaAllah ak ley wat! amin....
arini my sis dh dptkn umah tok ak dok 4 next sem. dkt ker? bley la.. ley naek bus. kat seksyen 7.
nmpk nye, 4 next sem ak btol2 kne independent. ak x knl sape2 pown dlm umah 2. xpnh jmp pown lg. but hope their all fine. nnt mesty akn d hari ak kne tinggal bus! haha..
b4 diz ak xpyh naek bus. jln kaki jer.
dh dok luar ni terpakse r byr sewa umah. xdpt la nk brjoli ngn duet yg ak d.. kne mule brjimat! umah yg ak nk dok ni apartment.. ok kot..
ape yg besh dok luar is ak ley wat pe yg ak suke. ley la kuar ngn kimi ari2.. coz kimi dok seky 13.
huhu...
start frm next sem, ak dh xley nk depent kat sape2 dh. ak kne wat smue sndri! ak kne bljr dgn lbh keras! xd lg owg yg ley nk tlg ak if xphm subject 2. coz umah masing2 dh jauh. ak kne tros g jmp prof la klu x th. n ak kne bukti kan yg ak mampu wat smue 2 tanpa bantuan owg laen lg!
inyaAllah ak ley wat! amin....
Sunday, November 29, 2009
diz feeling..complicated?!?
i met someone.. frm my fren.. he is cute.. n also nice.. then we met again. he came pick me up. we chat b4 i went 2 kg celebrating hari raye aidiladha. i think he is the one. he seem 2 b perfect. i nvr thought tat i will love someone like diz. i love him more than my ex.
i really2 love him. did he knw? did kimi knw?? kimi, i love u!!! is all i knw...
i dont want 2 knw anything else xcept about u..
i really2 love him. did he knw? did kimi knw?? kimi, i love u!!! is all i knw...
i dont want 2 knw anything else xcept about u..
Sunday, November 22, 2009
i'm seriusly had fun 2day!!
ola~
arini, ari yg sgt mnyeronokkan!!
mule2 ingt kuar ngn na sorg je.. tp x th lak amat, pakdin n the other guys wat suprise! coz diorg kte xjd nk ikot. diorg saje je tpu!
well, i really glad tat i finally met na2.
we talked about many things. our life in uni.. discuss about our prob.. do crazy things. n lot more..
n d gak tgk movie, 2012.. it is the best movie ever!! titanic pown kalah! it is a sad movie..
kiteorg gerak blk dlm kul 9 lbh.. pas 2 lepak kt 'jom mkn' kat sbg pdne, coz pakdin nk jmp kwn dia.. kwn dia seriusly CUTE!!! n also gentelman..
n now he text me! huhu.. happy.. :)
arini, ari yg sgt mnyeronokkan!!
mule2 ingt kuar ngn na sorg je.. tp x th lak amat, pakdin n the other guys wat suprise! coz diorg kte xjd nk ikot. diorg saje je tpu!
well, i really glad tat i finally met na2.
we talked about many things. our life in uni.. discuss about our prob.. do crazy things. n lot more..
n d gak tgk movie, 2012.. it is the best movie ever!! titanic pown kalah! it is a sad movie..
kiteorg gerak blk dlm kul 9 lbh.. pas 2 lepak kt 'jom mkn' kat sbg pdne, coz pakdin nk jmp kwn dia.. kwn dia seriusly CUTE!!! n also gentelman..
n now he text me! huhu.. happy.. :)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
having fun!!
hello!
well i cant wait 4 2morrow..coz wat? im going out wit my fren!!! yea.. finally i can get out frm sbg..( even 4 a while ).
n the next day, we, pakdin planning 2 introduce 2 me a new sport! wall climbing.. mule2 mls nk ikot, tp dia wat2 mrajok..mls nk lyn.. tp pk blk,y not.. musty fun gler ngn diorg! soooo...i decided 2 go! pakdin promise 2 pick me up tat day, but still not confirm the time. xpela, but 4 sure jd! coz pakdin skrg gler wall climbing! haha.. myb pasni ptt pakse dia maen skate! wat skate? ice skating! hahaha..
well i cant wait 4 2morrow..coz wat? im going out wit my fren!!! yea.. finally i can get out frm sbg..( even 4 a while ).
n the next day, we, pakdin planning 2 introduce 2 me a new sport! wall climbing.. mule2 mls nk ikot, tp dia wat2 mrajok..mls nk lyn.. tp pk blk,y not.. musty fun gler ngn diorg! soooo...i decided 2 go! pakdin promise 2 pick me up tat day, but still not confirm the time. xpela, but 4 sure jd! coz pakdin skrg gler wall climbing! haha.. myb pasni ptt pakse dia maen skate! wat skate? ice skating! hahaha..
Friday, November 20, 2009
whats going on wit me?
dont knw y.. sjak akhir2 ni ak asyik nk mrh mia je. dia mcm xdpt nk phm ak like always. y? everytime i'm talking about me, she will come out wit the other thing, other person. n tats is y i'm so mad! come on..diz is about me.
knp kau xkesah pe yg ak rase? knp kau just pk ak kuat?! diz is unfair.
u always like diz.
knp kau xkesah pe yg ak rase? knp kau just pk ak kuat?! diz is unfair.
u always like diz.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
words frm the bottom of my heart
i noticed tat it been a while tat im not write any in diz blog. kind da bz.
n lazy..
but 2day, i dont knw y.. there something tat pull me 2 write something in diz blog.
a lot of thing happen in this short week.
my ex seem to want na make me as his enemy. i dont love him anymore. i though i want make diz clear n seperate wit a nice way..but he just dont understand. im tired. to my ex, just leave me alone.
just now, i had fought wit my best friend. am i wrong? i just so mad. soo mad. they seem 2 bcome far frm me. i need them. i love them so much!
to fida n mia..
im so sorry..
didnt mean 2 hurt u girls
didnt mean 2 mad at u
didnt mean 2 say something tat might hurt u
i just dont want na lose u guys
coz u guys mean a lot 2 me..
no one can replaced ur place in my heart
im sorry..
i really2 mean it..
n to my ex.. sorry if i hurt u damn much..but we both hurt. enough wit all diz thing. let me move on.. u n me, go wit our own way.. dont want na b ur enemy.
n lazy..
but 2day, i dont knw y.. there something tat pull me 2 write something in diz blog.
a lot of thing happen in this short week.
my ex seem to want na make me as his enemy. i dont love him anymore. i though i want make diz clear n seperate wit a nice way..but he just dont understand. im tired. to my ex, just leave me alone.
just now, i had fought wit my best friend. am i wrong? i just so mad. soo mad. they seem 2 bcome far frm me. i need them. i love them so much!
to fida n mia..
im so sorry..
didnt mean 2 hurt u girls
didnt mean 2 mad at u
didnt mean 2 say something tat might hurt u
i just dont want na lose u guys
coz u guys mean a lot 2 me..
no one can replaced ur place in my heart
im sorry..
i really2 mean it..
n to my ex.. sorry if i hurt u damn much..but we both hurt. enough wit all diz thing. let me move on.. u n me, go wit our own way.. dont want na b ur enemy.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
cOnfiUS..
d sbb kan duet yang terhad, ak trpakse mmbuat pilihan..
ape kah yg ptt d utamekn??
1) laptop
2) new hp
3) kurus
argh! tensyen nye
duet yg tdak mncukupi mmbwt kan ia nye ssh tok d miliki!
g mana ya?
if anyone can help me?
i can only chose 2 of it
ape kah yg ptt d utamekn??
1) laptop
2) new hp
3) kurus
argh! tensyen nye
duet yg tdak mncukupi mmbwt kan ia nye ssh tok d miliki!
g mana ya?
if anyone can help me?
i can only chose 2 of it
Thursday, July 30, 2009
sakit ker aku?
sejak akhir2 ni ak prasan, ak ssh nk breath.. npe ye? nk kate ak mkn bkn2 x d plak.. hmm.. g check doc? wat per? mls la..t ok kot.. k la, pnt la dok dpn laptop ni lelame, nk trmuntah dah.
k da~
k da~
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
sakiT beLakAnG!
waHHh... pnt nye..
ari ni wat pe?
pg2 bgun sakit prot sgt2!
xley wat keje, so baring jer r..
pas2 ptg 2 dh ok ckit..
tbe2! hp berbunyi..bepp! xknl.. tnye la sape. rupenya my lecturer.
As class rep assistant, she ask my help 2 send an email 2 all my class member! for what?
our assigment! so i have 2 make sure all of them got the email.
but i hav prob wit it. I dont hav their phone num, coz i left it in my hostel room at UiTM. So i ask my close fren 2 help, Daniel! tnx bro! i manage 2 get my class members phone num & ask them,their email adress. But some of them i dont get any respond. aftr send the email 2 them i pown wat la assigment for CTU yg wat i skit blkg mnghadap laptop lame sgt. tp still x abis. But its ok, can continue it 2morrow..
br ingat.. i xtgk lg assigment pe yg i kne wat frm the email 2..
hmm..sibuk send kat owg, i sndri xsmpt bce..
k la.. tired..nk tido dlu!da~
P/S : ble sibuk i lupe psl mslh n ksdihan i..myb i should keep my self bz all the time.. hmm...
ari ni wat pe?
pg2 bgun sakit prot sgt2!
xley wat keje, so baring jer r..
pas2 ptg 2 dh ok ckit..
tbe2! hp berbunyi..bepp! xknl.. tnye la sape. rupenya my lecturer.
As class rep assistant, she ask my help 2 send an email 2 all my class member! for what?
our assigment! so i have 2 make sure all of them got the email.
but i hav prob wit it. I dont hav their phone num, coz i left it in my hostel room at UiTM. So i ask my close fren 2 help, Daniel! tnx bro! i manage 2 get my class members phone num & ask them,their email adress. But some of them i dont get any respond. aftr send the email 2 them i pown wat la assigment for CTU yg wat i skit blkg mnghadap laptop lame sgt. tp still x abis. But its ok, can continue it 2morrow..
br ingat.. i xtgk lg assigment pe yg i kne wat frm the email 2..
hmm..sibuk send kat owg, i sndri xsmpt bce..
k la.. tired..nk tido dlu!da~
P/S : ble sibuk i lupe psl mslh n ksdihan i..myb i should keep my self bz all the time.. hmm...
Monday, July 27, 2009
paSt meMoRies
i'm badly sad now.. just want na get out frm everyone. want 2 be alone. want go far as i could. want na cry all my heart. people might not undrstand me. but this is i am. i traped in my past memory and acting like everything go na b ok even though its not.
i had try so much, but i still cant get rid those thing. it sad when people that u love, does not love u but love someone else damn much, n he cant even love anyone else bcoz of her. Even u had try so much to make him know tat u love him more than that gurlz love him. But it still cant change antyhing.
what happen 2 me?
y i still depend on him?
i should move on..
it almost a year or mayb more than that, i cant even remember how long i had suffer.
what can i do so that i move frm where i am now. it enough for me if i can just move 1 step. only 1 step. but it seem so hard for me 2 do it.
plz..someone, i need help.
cant breath..
i had try so much, but i still cant get rid those thing. it sad when people that u love, does not love u but love someone else damn much, n he cant even love anyone else bcoz of her. Even u had try so much to make him know tat u love him more than that gurlz love him. But it still cant change antyhing.
what happen 2 me?
y i still depend on him?
i should move on..
it almost a year or mayb more than that, i cant even remember how long i had suffer.
what can i do so that i move frm where i am now. it enough for me if i can just move 1 step. only 1 step. but it seem so hard for me 2 do it.
plz..someone, i need help.
cant breath..
Saturday, July 25, 2009
'Gravity...'
when i first heard diz song, there is only 1 thing in my mind, him.. n i start cry..
diz song mean a lot 2 me.. its by sara bareilles
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
diz song mean a lot 2 me.. its by sara bareilles
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
Thursday, July 23, 2009
tWiLighT
have u guy watched this movie?
i just finish watch diz movie..n it now bcome at top of my fav movie!
the hero remind me 2 someone tat i love the most, straight 2 the point, its him, syafiq..
i dont know y, everytime i watch the scene involved the hero, i see him inside. my heart beb fast, the feeling came, the feeling when i wit him 2gethr. when we were kissing.. i miss him.. a lot.. no one can replace him..
i just finish watch diz movie..n it now bcome at top of my fav movie!
the hero remind me 2 someone tat i love the most, straight 2 the point, its him, syafiq..
i dont know y, everytime i watch the scene involved the hero, i see him inside. my heart beb fast, the feeling came, the feeling when i wit him 2gethr. when we were kissing.. i miss him.. a lot.. no one can replace him..
Saturday, June 27, 2009
lEavInG..
br abis kemas tp sbnrnye xabis pown lg.
pnt sgt..td kuar beli brg. But still a lot yg x beli. xsmpt.
selesema still x ok lg, nfs still x lncr sbb smpot..
but sok dh nk msok U. leaving everyone. n this time im alone. no mia, no him..
xmcm kat matrik dlu. dia still ade, n mia same matrix.
perasaan?? xrase pape, just nk cpt semboh, xlrt la klu skit, dh r d orentasi! pkre yg pling mmbencikan!xsmpt nk bls msg sape2. sory la bz..myb next time.
kali ni kne brdikari, x d lg mia tok jge aku. hope 4 2morrow,n the rest time in U will b ok.. Wish me luck yea!!
PS: wait 4 my new post, i'll post my life in U n the orentasi week there!
pnt sgt..td kuar beli brg. But still a lot yg x beli. xsmpt.
selesema still x ok lg, nfs still x lncr sbb smpot..
but sok dh nk msok U. leaving everyone. n this time im alone. no mia, no him..
xmcm kat matrik dlu. dia still ade, n mia same matrix.
perasaan?? xrase pape, just nk cpt semboh, xlrt la klu skit, dh r d orentasi! pkre yg pling mmbencikan!xsmpt nk bls msg sape2. sory la bz..myb next time.
kali ni kne brdikari, x d lg mia tok jge aku. hope 4 2morrow,n the rest time in U will b ok.. Wish me luck yea!!
PS: wait 4 my new post, i'll post my life in U n the orentasi week there!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
kiSah DeMI KiSaH!
aku rase, 1 of my wish wkt bday aku dh tercapai la!
myb this is the time kot. Lg pown dh nk smbong degree, pasni idop aku mesti lg mnrik!
nk prove kat smue owg yg aku ley xcellent..
n de lg kesah, cter lucu yg wat aku n my sis gelak bsr.
ni prbualan ibu n aku.
ibu : anak mak cik *** umor dh lanjot, tp x kawin2 lg..
aku : biarla bu.. anak ibu ni pown agak nye x kwin! (aku pown gelak)
ibu : nape palk?
aku : calon pown xde bu nk kawin pe nye?? (aku snyum.. n ibu nmpknye gusar!)
ibu : cari la calon, ha, ni nk msok U t ley cri bf!
aku : ha?? (dgn muke yg SGT terparanjat..kemudian mlihat ayah d sblh)
ayah: (hnye mendiamkn diri)
aku : ibu biar btol?? adik pnye la tkot nk cri bf.. tkot ayah mrh..( kmbali mlihat ayah)
ayah : (masih mndiamkn dri)
ibu : cri bf cpt2, t kang umor dh lanjot x kawin2! ble dh d bf sng ckit, ley knl2, pas2 dh th budi pkerti dia, br la ley kawin.
klu xd or lmbt ade bf, kang lmbt lak kwin. t bg alsn kat ibu "br knl la bu.."
aku : yela bu.. t adik cri calon ye bu? (dgn nada yg maen2, smbil gelak)
ibu : (membuat muke yg xpuas hati)
kemudian kmbali ke blik n mnceritakan kat my sis.
aku : along, gues what ibu ckp td??
along : ape??
aku : ibu srh aku cri bf! wkt 2 ayah d!
along : biar btol?? ( along gelak bsr )
aku : ye!!!
along : ha, ni la mase nye! dh dpt green light dr ibu, n ayh nmpknye xkesah..
aku : ha? tgk la..
along : npe? still x ley lupekan ****** ??
aku : tah..
along : dh la, dia bkn tok kau, x sesuai tok kau. if dia syg kau dia x wat kau gni.
dh lame sgt la, find someone else. Bkk ruang tok owg laen..
aku : hm.. ( buat2 xdgr )
along : dgr x??
aku : ye..dgr..
aku kmudian ambek ear phone n sumbat dlm telinga.. klu x mcm2 lg la dia ceramah!
myb this is the time kot. Lg pown dh nk smbong degree, pasni idop aku mesti lg mnrik!
nk prove kat smue owg yg aku ley xcellent..
n de lg kesah, cter lucu yg wat aku n my sis gelak bsr.
ni prbualan ibu n aku.
ibu : anak mak cik *** umor dh lanjot, tp x kawin2 lg..
aku : biarla bu.. anak ibu ni pown agak nye x kwin! (aku pown gelak)
ibu : nape palk?
aku : calon pown xde bu nk kawin pe nye?? (aku snyum.. n ibu nmpknye gusar!)
ibu : cari la calon, ha, ni nk msok U t ley cri bf!
aku : ha?? (dgn muke yg SGT terparanjat..kemudian mlihat ayah d sblh)
ayah: (hnye mendiamkn diri)
aku : ibu biar btol?? adik pnye la tkot nk cri bf.. tkot ayah mrh..( kmbali mlihat ayah)
ayah : (masih mndiamkn dri)
ibu : cri bf cpt2, t kang umor dh lanjot x kawin2! ble dh d bf sng ckit, ley knl2, pas2 dh th budi pkerti dia, br la ley kawin.
klu xd or lmbt ade bf, kang lmbt lak kwin. t bg alsn kat ibu "br knl la bu.."
aku : yela bu.. t adik cri calon ye bu? (dgn nada yg maen2, smbil gelak)
ibu : (membuat muke yg xpuas hati)
kemudian kmbali ke blik n mnceritakan kat my sis.
aku : along, gues what ibu ckp td??
along : ape??
aku : ibu srh aku cri bf! wkt 2 ayah d!
along : biar btol?? ( along gelak bsr )
aku : ye!!!
along : ha, ni la mase nye! dh dpt green light dr ibu, n ayh nmpknye xkesah..
aku : ha? tgk la..
along : npe? still x ley lupekan ****** ??
aku : tah..
along : dh la, dia bkn tok kau, x sesuai tok kau. if dia syg kau dia x wat kau gni.
dh lame sgt la, find someone else. Bkk ruang tok owg laen..
aku : hm.. ( buat2 xdgr )
along : dgr x??
aku : ye..dgr..
aku kmudian ambek ear phone n sumbat dlm telinga.. klu x mcm2 lg la dia ceramah!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
msOk U..
msok U? Degree?
sound mcm besh jer..tp mls la.. xsmpt nk lepak2.
this sat dh kne g.
sorg2 lak 2..
n there is still a lot of work 2 do! but 2morrow nk g cut hair dlu. with new n fresh look!
hehe.. n b4 lupe, 2 all my fren, again i nk tkr num tau? hehe, jgn la mrh.. aku th aku byk kali sgt tkr num. tp nk wat cam ner, asyik kne bocor je. Last k?
mesti fda kte ' ari 2 pown last gak!'
yela syg..
t aku snd my new num b4 msok U k?
got 2 go. XOXO
sound mcm besh jer..tp mls la.. xsmpt nk lepak2.
this sat dh kne g.
sorg2 lak 2..
n there is still a lot of work 2 do! but 2morrow nk g cut hair dlu. with new n fresh look!
hehe.. n b4 lupe, 2 all my fren, again i nk tkr num tau? hehe, jgn la mrh.. aku th aku byk kali sgt tkr num. tp nk wat cam ner, asyik kne bocor je. Last k?
mesti fda kte ' ari 2 pown last gak!'
yela syg..
t aku snd my new num b4 msok U k?
got 2 go. XOXO
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Na katE....
hello! byk gak bnde yg jd arini, tp mls nk create byk2.
tp nk ckp yg td borak lame dgn na..cter psl konflik yg mnimpa dri kt tmpt keje smpi i ngis la kt c2! hehe.. tp dh ok dh. Na de kate, lupe kan pe yg xelok blaku kt kite arini,n start new n fresh 2morrow. then tnye na blk, mcm ner nk wat mcm 2? then na ckp, b4 sleep, ingt pe yg blaku kat kite drp yg baik smpi yg pling burok! pas2 pas dh imbas smue 2, next step is forgive them for everything tat they does to u. n i think na is ryte. forgive them.. n i forgive everything tat they does 2 me. N 2morrow will be a new day tat i have 2 face. i want na start fresh n hope 2morrow will be the best day ever! wish me luck k?! k dats it 4 now.
PS: thanks na 4 being my best buddy! mish u damn much!
tp nk ckp yg td borak lame dgn na..cter psl konflik yg mnimpa dri kt tmpt keje smpi i ngis la kt c2! hehe.. tp dh ok dh. Na de kate, lupe kan pe yg xelok blaku kt kite arini,n start new n fresh 2morrow. then tnye na blk, mcm ner nk wat mcm 2? then na ckp, b4 sleep, ingt pe yg blaku kat kite drp yg baik smpi yg pling burok! pas2 pas dh imbas smue 2, next step is forgive them for everything tat they does to u. n i think na is ryte. forgive them.. n i forgive everything tat they does 2 me. N 2morrow will be a new day tat i have 2 face. i want na start fresh n hope 2morrow will be the best day ever! wish me luck k?! k dats it 4 now.
PS: thanks na 4 being my best buddy! mish u damn much!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
hAppY bDAy, bDay gUrlz!
haPy birthday 2 me!
today is my birthday!
wat im going 2 do on my birthday?
i have no idea. but the most important thing is, i dont want na b sad!
im 19 now! so fast.. rase mcm br je abis secondary school.
so wat is my wish 4 this year?
i wish...
- i always b happy
- find my self
- get the course tat i want
- forget 'someone'
- find a hot guy! hehe..
n.. START A NEW LIFE
today is my birthday!
wat im going 2 do on my birthday?
i have no idea. but the most important thing is, i dont want na b sad!
im 19 now! so fast.. rase mcm br je abis secondary school.
so wat is my wish 4 this year?
i wish...
- i always b happy
- find my self
- get the course tat i want
- forget 'someone'
- find a hot guy! hehe..
n.. START A NEW LIFE
Sunday, June 14, 2009
wOrK...
working..
make me bz.
no time 2 hang out wit frend.
no time 2 write in a blog
no time 2 share wat happen to me.
pling sdey, no time to celebrate or do something to my very2 special, n the most important person in my life, my bubu on his bday. very sad. so sad.
n now, i start benci working! coz it took my time frm me.
make me bz.
no time 2 hang out wit frend.
no time 2 write in a blog
no time 2 share wat happen to me.
pling sdey, no time to celebrate or do something to my very2 special, n the most important person in my life, my bubu on his bday. very sad. so sad.
n now, i start benci working! coz it took my time frm me.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
tO buBu..
if u read this thing, i want na say something..
i miss u.. i miss u so much..
i dont know if i can say this, but i love u so much.
i know tat we r not meant 4 each other.
but i want na say this so tat u know. I know u r just break up. i know u love her so much.
its ok then, just forget this.. i'm so tired..need some sleep..
i miss u.. i miss u so much..
i dont know if i can say this, but i love u so much.
i know tat we r not meant 4 each other.
but i want na say this so tat u know. I know u r just break up. i know u love her so much.
its ok then, just forget this.. i'm so tired..need some sleep..
Thursday, May 21, 2009
thing will never b the same anymore
y i feel hurt when u show tat u love her? hm... should i shut up n just care bout my life? i think so. forget him k? chaiyok!!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
sbb laki x gune
Sbb dia aku ilang kwn aku. Bullshit pnye laki! knp la aku jmp kau. dh r mnyusah kn aku smpi skrg. argh.. aku sgt mnyesal jmp kau. aku syg sgt kwn aku. lbh syg dr aku pnh syg kau. tp skrg smue 2 dh xgune. aku dh ilang kwn aku. n smue sbb kau.
hurt..
u hurt me.. kau pihak kn dia. n i hate her! i hate u 2! u such a jerk! we should not talk. it getting worst.
its over
my journey end here..
it is so bad.. i had study so hard, but it turn up like this.
i will never get into any University. it bullshit! It is so unfair. compared 2 the others. i try so hard!
i had disappointed my mum n my dad. I'm so sorry. i did try my best.
know what? study is suck! i hate it!!! i feel like want to cry. there is something in my head and my heart. its feel like something had broken. like there is something seriously damaged inside. can i just cry? no i cant. Coz it mean nothing! there is no point 4 me to cry. i'm the 1 who stupid. i the one who just not so good to be among the best! why everything seem 2 be not right 4 me now. losing best friend. losing him. and now the bad result. am i so stupid?!! this result mean so much 4 me. but i ruined it. good job sya!
it is so bad.. i had study so hard, but it turn up like this.
i will never get into any University. it bullshit! It is so unfair. compared 2 the others. i try so hard!
i had disappointed my mum n my dad. I'm so sorry. i did try my best.
know what? study is suck! i hate it!!! i feel like want to cry. there is something in my head and my heart. its feel like something had broken. like there is something seriously damaged inside. can i just cry? no i cant. Coz it mean nothing! there is no point 4 me to cry. i'm the 1 who stupid. i the one who just not so good to be among the best! why everything seem 2 be not right 4 me now. losing best friend. losing him. and now the bad result. am i so stupid?!! this result mean so much 4 me. but i ruined it. good job sya!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
waT u waNT fRoM mE..??!
know wat? iM tired wiT u! arGh! y must i trust u again n again?! y u come back?? wat do u want frm me? im better alone! go 2 her! i cant replace her!! just go!!
Friday, May 15, 2009
tHE cLimB
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause
There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb
Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Sunday, March 8, 2009
wEnt oUt wiT hiM



haI gUys.. aRini kuAr nGan 'him' n kWn2 dia.. n i had FuN wit TheM. TheY just sO sempoi. wE wEnt to DamansAra.Watched mOviE, lePak2 till 11pm. As i Sowg je gurLz kt c2, n plIng kecIk, rase mCm d boDyguArd lak kt sEkelilig tLg jGe huhu.. n wKt 2 ujaN.. knoW wat happEn? 'he' bkk dia nYe swEeTer n giVe it 2 mE..SWeeT kn?! wE kOngSi aiR lg..huhu
i'M so hAppY wit hIm!
Friday, March 6, 2009
sOmeoNe in mY life..
hey! lame x write sOmething kn? anyway, i have a big sTory! but not Really la..
its about 'him'.. i knew him quite long time ago.. n recently we start contact each other back. Everynyte he will call me, n know wat? i'm waiting his call! n blE lmBt i x sNg duduk..
I'm love talking wit him..he just niCe, he cheer me up everytime i feel SaD.. he So fUnny! thank dudE!!! So gLad that u r Here wIT mE...
its about 'him'.. i knew him quite long time ago.. n recently we start contact each other back. Everynyte he will call me, n know wat? i'm waiting his call! n blE lmBt i x sNg duduk..
I'm love talking wit him..he just niCe, he cheer me up everytime i feel SaD.. he So fUnny! thank dudE!!! So gLad that u r Here wIT mE...
Sunday, February 8, 2009
haha.. FuNny la u babe
know wat guys, excidently trbuka blog someone yg dh lame gler x bkk. he got a new gf, or mayb he try 2 make relation wit that gurl not just a fren! so wat? wat is the funniest thing? mayb u guys x phm.. i know him well i think. actually xnk pown cter psl dia tp ngah bowing2 lak. just tergelak ble pk psl owg yg complicated n desperate tok find someone in their life!
huhu.. x elokkn mengumpat? Sori..!!! hehe
k la nk smbong keje! da...
PS: if u read this one, didt mean anything,just want 2 share wit my follower! jgn trase ye darling..
huhu.. x elokkn mengumpat? Sori..!!! hehe
k la nk smbong keje! da...
PS: if u read this one, didt mean anything,just want 2 share wit my follower! jgn trase ye darling..
Monday, January 26, 2009
lAsT dAy in tHE hOUsE
going back 2 matrix 2morrow. Hmm.. i dont want na b sad or not the rest of my day in matrix will be so hard n i will just think about the next holiday. lg pown x lame pown lg, i just need 2 wait a little bit more. Just about 2 n half month i think.
Everything will b ok n everything will b fine ! i belived that!
jgn serabot kn pkirn. just go with the flow......
Everything will b ok n everything will b fine ! i belived that!
jgn serabot kn pkirn. just go with the flow......
Friday, January 23, 2009
nOtiCE x?
if u guys prasan byk post dlm blog ni dh xde.Yup! dh delete dh.. Ble read those things rase life aku x fun. Asyik pk bnda yg dh lps. So.. aku delete all the story yg aku write, especially yg sdey2. SO pasni xd r memory2 yg sdey2.. huhu. I want na b happy!
ChaiyOk!!
ChaiyOk!!
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