janji saye ^_*

sblm hunny sy g, sy dh janji spnjg ketiadaan dia, sy akn rajin bljr. jd arini, sy akn mule stdy n siap kn kje2 tutor sy dgn pnuh smgt! jd chaiyok2!!! tp sblm 2 sy nk ckp..
2 my hunny : i love u n miss u soooo much!!! muah2!!

when the time he need 2 go~

it was a full of tears last nyte. i cried so hard, i cant even remember when is the last tyme i cried tat hard. im so sad, to let him go. yesterday was the last day i spend with him. the only guy in my heart. i knw it is not only hard 4 me, but i believe it hard to him too. i try 2 play cool last nyte, but when the tyme i hug him, my tears fall down. i dont want him go. i want him 2 stay wit me. i love him, tats all i knw. 2 let him go is the hardest part of my life. eventhou is not meant 4 ever, yet i still sad. i never be apart frm him. so is difficult to accept tat im going 2 be alone 4 a while. im scared without him. im thinking, wat im going 2 do, wat my life going 2 be without him by my side. i was touch when hu said, "if u need me, put ur hand on ur chest, listen 2 ur heart beat, bcoz tat is me,closed 2 u".so there is nothing 4 me 2 worried about. there is so many memories build by us, n every single chapter is very mean 2 me. when i saw his eyes, there is tears inside, i knw he want 2 cry, but he stand strong, he dont want me 2 c. but at tat moment im happy, knowing tat he love me. i knw he love me so much. he promise 2 call me everytime he free. promise 2 get back n c me every month.i knw he leave 4 a reason, to continue his stdy. n im always hope 4 the best 4 him. and i will wait no matter how long it take. hun.. i really miss u ryte now.. i feel like i want 2 cry.. it so hard 4 me.. i was wonder if u miss me 2..i was wonder if u thinking of me ryte now.. come back soon yea..coz im always waiting u.love u huuny bie~ XOXO

is all about HER

i knew it. its all about her. in ur head, is all about her. u really make my eyes open. at beginning i thought it not tat matter. but now, everything changed. u dont really need me. i made my decision. thnx

GOT IT

kon0n nye nk siap kn assignment. tp nmpk ny assignment 2 sgt ssh. tensyen btol la. ke sbnrnye ak yg pk bnde 2 ssh? mls la nk pk arini. arini mcm xbest. everything x best. myb ssb ak mmg xd mood kot.
tbe2 rase cpt plak mase brlalu, arini dh sabtu, sok ahad, kne g module. gler xbest, buang mase je pergi, bkn pnting pown tp nk xnk kne g gak. ye r t xpsl2 kne repeat. rase bodo la arini, without notice, ak rase ak mcm tgh tnggu something. but till now, there is no news about 'it'. i think i got it. myb yea, 'it' try 2 tell me something. which is, i hav to stop waiting, in other word, game over!
am i mad? am i sad? should i? am i deserve to feel tat way? 2 be honest, i feel sad.. mad.. but wat can i do? nothing ryte? so..diam je kot. just, laen kali keep ur promise. is't so hard 2 do tat? just dont lie 2 me. just be honest. rase mcm kejam sgt. ak rase dia kejam sgt.dh la, drop it. im gonna b okey. im used wit it.

p/s: next tyme, just telling me the truth, even its hard, i can handle it.i will mad. definittly, but at least u give me chance 2 mad at you. but now, i dont even hav chance to say something. it just unfair.

missing????

i been waiting for quite long now. but yet, i still xnmpk bayang u. where hav u been? plz, enough wit your excuse. is doesnt take u a years 2 grab a phone to text o call me. y its 2 hard 4 u. seriusly, u make me wonder if u r really love me. witout u notice, u are running away from me. i yold u b4 ryte, if u want 2 end diz, just tell me. we doit on the gud way. u r going back diz sunday. u promise 2 meet me b4 u go. but its friday now, n i still dont knw wats happen wit u. i hate waiting. u knw tat ryte. watever la. its up 2 u. do wat u want.

thinking 2 much!

rase moody lately.myb coz im thinking 2 much. tp ak sgt2 tkot. if ape yg ak pk kn 2 akn blaku. mcm mane nk tros kn idop? mcm ne dgn my study? how bout my parent? diorg mesty mrh n kecewa gler dgn ak. YA ALLAH... bntu la ak. ak th ak bkn seorg yg baek. tp kali ni, ak btol2 memohon prtolongan. ak dh bwt byk silap. bnyk sgt2. tlg la jauh kn ak dr pe yg ak pk kn 2. TOLONG LA........

note 2 my beloved bf..

if only i can tell u what i feel now. i seriusly want 2 cry. just pretend tat everything okey. i nvr thought tat im going to love u as much i did now. i love u. i seriusly love u. u make my life meaningfull. u cheer me up.
plz take care hunny..
i knw its our hard tyme.
but we gonna make it.
nothing can stop us.
hav a faith on ur self. i will always with u. 2 support u..

p/s : love..we got love, no one can take tat frm us. no matter wat.
love you hunny~

my great company!

today is my best fren birthday, name dia nana! she such a great person 2 me. always there whenever i need her. in any circumstance, she always knw wat 2 say. we r in the same class during high school. but kitorg mule rpt since we r in matrix. never xpected 2 b close like diz. btol pepatah yg mngatakn "nothing is impossible!"..
there r so many thing we shared 2 gether. even bnde yg xtrpk tok d kongsi.
the best thing about her is, dia xpnh jemu dgr luahan ati ak. xpnh muak dgn tangisan ak. xpnh pnt dgn prangai ak, yg sememang nye akn wat owg pning. i can share everything ble dgn dia, something yg ak xley wat ble dgn owg laen. she helped me not only in my personal problem, wkt study kat matrix pown dia sntiase d support ak. kitorg bljr same2. ingt lg wkt nk dkt2 exam. dia lah yg bg ak smgt tok bljr. dia ajr ak bnde yg ak xphm. dia mcm enzyme yg enhance my body tok stdy! haha..
dr dlu smpi skrg, i always admire her, dgn smgt dia, every single word yg kuar dr mulot dia always positive. sometimes, even ak wat keje gler, dia xpnh mrh.. tp dia sntiase sokong, asl kn ak th mane yg trbaek. tp ble dia rase ak dh mule jauh trsimpang, dia mesty dtg, bkn tok mrh.. tp tok berikn kate2 yg sgt dalam mksdnye. xperlu tinggi kn suare, xperlu tok brmasam muke..
to nana.. tq 4 being the great company, 4 being shoulder 4 me 2 cry on..
be proud of ur self, coz u r definitly the great person! no matter wat people said, i always trust u. remember, u dont need miracle 2 shine, coz u already a diamond tat wont fade n will keep shining through out life!
again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet heart! may u always n always b a great person!!!

with love,
sya2~

IF ONLY i hav a normal relationship

ble pk2 blk, ak pnye relationship dgn dia, pelik ckit.. we r not like the normal couple. there r few things tat we cant do 2gether. diz is bcoz we hav 2 take care others feeling. not 2 b complaint just sometimes feel jelous wit other fren who had a normal relationship. its a challenge 2 me. n sometimes kinda hard. but im okey.. ( but my fren ckp, went someone say, "im ok" it shown tat something is not ok!, really?? ). watever it is, diz is wat i wanted, so i hav 2 accept it.

shopping!!!

diz is yesterday pnye story, i cant publish it yesterday due 2 some problem.. hehe..

"its a long day" kate2 dr bf ku. bgun d saat hujan membasahi bumi. mls2 je nk bgon. mandy pown tkot2 je sbb sejuk. tp bgun gak coz dh janji ngn dia nk g beli brg. agak proud gak ngn dia sbb dia brjaye bgon d awl pg sungguh pown xbrape nk awl. tp bkn sng nk bgun wkt hujan2. siap2 tok kuar. seperti biase sy memerlukn mase yg lame untok brsiap. biase lah, name pown girl. lps siap, dia dtg ambek. kami menuju ke sunway pyramid. perancangan adlh tok membeli brg keperluan ku yg sesetengah nye x brape nk perlu. mule2 mcm sng je nk pilih brg. tp bile msok je bab beli ksot n beg, ia memerlu kn mase yg sgt pnjg smpi ksmue kdai ksot sy msok. d yg msok bnyk kali. malu jugak sy sbnrnye. tp d sbb kn kepuasan yg maximum yg sy ingin kan. sy tebal kn juge muke sy. sy th, dia pown mesty tebal kn muke tmn sy. hehe. tp ble sy tgk dia arini, sy kagum.. bkn smue org dpt thn ngn sy. tp dia sgt brsbr. myb dia pk, kitorg xth smpi ble. so kitorg manfaat kn mase yg d.. tp ape2 pown, sy gembire.. ble dia dsisi sy.. ape2 pown, thnx hunny for company me! love u so much dear!!!!!!!

"dEStiNY"

life seem 2 b complicated recently. everything seem 2 b tought.cant really tell wat is exactly the problem coz no one can understand. coincident sometimes gud, but sometimes bring u troubles. it may sometimes called destiny. but in my situation i dont knw wat should i called it. sometimes we just cant hav wat we want. sometimes we changed just bcoz we want them 2 love us better. but through experienced, i dont think it was a gud idea. every person is a different person. myb being ur self at the first place would help u going through. myb im being 2 paranoid about tat. afraid to lose another man in my life. but tat was me. a person who always acting o having a different personality at different time. i dont knw y, im not confident as i am b4. afraid 2 walk bside u. thinking tat im out of ur league. n not suited u. tat is y i keep saying 'i cant'. being wit me only coz u troubles. n i dont want na b tat person. u being bz make me think tat u dont love me anymore. my thought separate me frm u. is tat me who thinking 2 much o it just true about wat im thinking? if it wasnt true n im thinking 2 much, then correct me. coz i need u. im not ready to lose u. if losing u is the destiny i hav 2 faced, it going to b the hard work then ( hard 2 fix it ).we met 4 a reason, n i hope it is a gud one. give me some clue o sign so tat i knw.

P/S : They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices.But I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.