yesterday

smlm kuar..
ngn mamat 2 ah
n i finally knw tat he is really not my type.
i cant b with him.
hensem is not wat im looking for.
is all about someone attitude.
how they bring their self.
n i also realised tat i dont hav 2 b hurry.
someone who r really meant 4 me will come naturally.
n i realised tat he cant b replace n i never though 2 replace him.
he has his own place in my heart. n now.. i think im not ready 4 any man outside there.
i just let tyme decide.

p/s: not celebrating new year. just stay at home alone!uwa~

does our brain always thinking??

some of my fren ckp, i think a lot.
n it usually bring problem 2 me.
n honestly, im tired of thinking.
klu korg tgh gosok baju, korg brpk x wkt 2?
about anything? ak benci gosok baju. sbb ak sgt pnt.
bkn je pnt gosok baju, tp otak ak pown pnt sbb byk pk bnde yg xpnting.
ble nk tdo..pe korg bwt?
ak slalu xdpt tdo.. sbb bile ak nk tdo, im doing nothing. so, ak akn brpk.
my fren kat matrix dlu slalu ckp, 'sya, jgn pk bnyk.. ble nk tdo, just bygkn bnde yg indah2 je.. br ley tdo..' tp ak xboley.. sbb 2 ak d mslh tok tdo.
dlu my ex pnh ajar, klu xdpt tdo, byg kan ad byk kambing kat atas, pas2 start counting.. (smile...) klakar plak.. tp ak try mcm yg dia ckp. ist work? tah la.. tp tnx coz at least u came out wit something 2 help me..
hurm.. wat should i do yea..
pnt la asyik mcm ni je. pk trlalu bnyk, smpi jd tkot..

conpius..

how 2 start yea..
anyway, somebody ask 4 hangout 2 morrow.
just 2 of us, n the person is 'he'
yea.. is he..
i dont knw if i like him.
yea admit kitorg dh agak lame knl.
n we do go hang out sometimes.. like always, only 2 of us.
but diz tyme is diffrent, the situation is diffrent.
i feel nervous.. i dont knw if it is gud o bad.
bkn slame ni xpnh kuar ngn dia,tgk wayang smue. tp kali ni mcm.. tah la.
2morrow pown nk tgk wayg, kat tmpt biase.
tah la..tgk la sok.if kuar, yea kuar. if ngak, yea ngak la~
prob solved!

bf vs ex-bf

in this case, who do u think will win?
is tat the bf o ex-bf?
diz is not about me. diz is about my friend yg sdg brgelut dgn perasaan nye! (peh! bm yg hbt.. huhu)
cerite nye bgini..
dlu, my fren ni sgt syg bf dia yg skrg ni tlh mnjd ex-bf nye.
hbgn diowg sgt lame. ak pown kagum la tgk!tp..mlg nye, diorg clash sbb.. ak pown kurang pasti.
tp wkt 2 kwn ak gler up sad..mcm dunia dh xd pe.. 2 lah love. hurm...
dh lame pas2.. dia knl ngn sorg mamat ni, agak hensem r.. diorg ok jer..mcm couple2 yg laen.
xlame pas2. dia nye ex-bf muncul kmbali.. jengjengjeng!!
smue kwn2 ak ni trmsok ak pon sdia mklum yg dia sgt syg ex-bf dia dlu..
n ble dh ex bf dia dtg, dia mule la ragu2.
sbb ye r, dia kn dh lame ngn ex-bf dia 2.. myb dia still syg ex-bf dia 2 kot.
2 la yg dia tnye ak 2.. ak mane la th nk jwb. ak sndri pown trumbang ambing! hihi..
tp ble pk blk, ssh jugak. ye r kn, dia byk memory ngn ex-bf dia dlu sbb diorg dh trlalu lame, sdgkan bf dia yg br ni dia br je lg, xsmpi setahun.
ak rase if dia ley ragu2 mean dia xreally love bf dia yg skag ni. n still love dia ex. tp dia kne igt.. ex bf dia pnh wat silap. skang trpulang kat dia, same ad nk truskn ngn bf dia skang o pth blk mcm dlu,ngn ex dia yg dia sndri x pasty ex dia ley ubah perangai o tdak.
ak pown xrety sgt nk comment. but ice, i hope u ley wat kptsn yg trbaik tok dri u. pape pown i sntiase sokong!

p/s : if i, i always give a chance. if kite dh lame dgn dia, dh lame tunggu dia, y not diz tyme..
but if we dont want a risk then forget him. but wat is love without risk ryte?

getting worst

recently, my asthma seem like getting worst.
i cant sleep at night. it so difficult 4 me 2 breath.
b4 diz i just taking a pil but now turn 2 use spray.
i cant sleep well. my chest so pain. sometimes i felt like im dying.
even when im writing diz post i still in pain. the class will start soon.. glad tat i just studying in shah alam. so if somehing happen i can just call my dad. but if it keep happen,mean my asthma, it will b so difficult 4 me. recently, even when i went out wit my fren 2 mall pown i need 2 bring my spray. seem like i cant live without that spray.
hurm..i think tats all 4 2nyte. i cant breath smoothly. need 2 go.da~

poem..

i'm not thinking about writing a poem but it remind me something.
i just watched spiderman on tv2. it mentioned that if u love someone write him/her a poem.
long tyme ago, there is someone who wrote me a poem. it so touching, it lovely..
i still remember his last phase, it written there
'will u aisyah, be my soul mate'...
but it left as memory..
n just let it b..

hellOo2!!

hai~
mane nk start eh??
hurm.. let start about my trip 2 melake 2morrow.
sok ak n my sis, together wit her n his fren nk g melake.
hav some fun during diz holiday.
at beggining x th nk g ke x. but then i call my best buddy..he said, y not.
he said, i should go n hav some fun dr dok kat umah je.
so... i decide 2 go!!
hehe.. well... i promise him 2 take some pic n send it 2 him when im there.
melaka..here i come!

result...

today result kuar..
im not doing well, i just got 3.49 another 0.01 to get dekan.
im so disapointed. very..
evryone seem 2 pass wit excellent result,but 4 me, just medium..
like always.
i will never get chance 2 get anugerah naib cancellor,
its kinda hurt. frustrating..

today, is the day where everything is change

today..
i decided..
today...
is all begin..
where,
no more best friend around me
no more guy tat i crushed to
no more social
it all back 2 before
where i have to follow all the rules
even i my self didnt knw y im doing diz
but diz is wat people want me 2 be
so i just follow wit or without my desire
i'm sad
badly..
feel like i want 2 sleep till the end of my life.
i'm disapointed
i feel terible
no one will understand
but if diz is wat they want
i'll do it.
just hoping tat one day i will get used wit it n accept it..
tat is the end of the story...

hate my dad

i knw it sound harsh
but i dont care. i hate my dad.
he want 2 control all my life
i hav 2 do everything he want me 2 do
i dont hav any freedom.. name je dok kat dlm negara merdeka.huh!
i dont care wat people want 2 say about, it doesnt matter anymore.
i want na do what i want, what i like, not just follow the rule n take my life away from me.
i knw what i do.
just let me find my way, create my life. i cant be the one tat u wish me 2 b dad!
u make the rule ryte?? ok then! but i wont b the same daughter tat u dream of. dont challenge me. u dont knw ur daughter well.