glaD...

tah knp arini, ak rase ak sgt syg dia. br ak sdr wlu pown kitorg xmcm owg laen tp ak happy knl dia. ak rase glad tat im part of him. wlu pown kdg2 ak kne bergelut dgn prasaan cemburu n kata2 owg laen, tp ak xnk ambek peduli, sbb yg pnting ak happy.
wlu pown ak kurang pasti sejauh mane ak boleh melangkah kdpn dgn dia, tp ak th, langkah yg ak ambil d temani oleh dia,same ada kami hanye mampu selangkah kehadapan atau terus melangkah hingga ke akhir nye.
ak th rmi yg pelik n mrh dgn kptusan ak. rmi yg pk ak ni tgh bwt keje giler. ye ak admit, ak mmg tgh bwt keje gler. ak juga telah membukti kn pd owg rmi yg love mmg blind. bkn ak xpnh cube tok lps kn, tpu la klu ak kate 'i dont mind'. frankly speaking, i do mind.. but i just dont want to think of it.
ad 1 reason knp ak rase ak boley trus kn..sbb nye is tanpe ak sedar, dh 6 bln hubungan kami.. n sepanjang 6 bln 2, kebahagian yg ak rase lebih dr derita. itu mnunjuk kn yg ak bhagia dgn dia wlu pown dlm situasi mcm ni.bkn nye ak xpnh bercinta sblm ni, tp ak pnh hadapi idop dlm relationship yg mane ak lebih merasakn derita dr gembira. myb sbb 2 ak rase kali ni ak boleh melangkah kehadapan dgn dia.
kdg2 mmg la ak rase kecik ati ttg bnyk pkre, tp dia sgt pndi tok bwt ak lupe smue 2. dia mmg suke bwt ak nages smpi ak rase dia sbnrnye segaje je.hehe
mcm dh merepek jauh je ak ni kn. myb sbb ak rindu kat dia kot. mcm2 kejutan nk wat tok dia. xsbr nye!
pape pown to my hunny bie, i love u.. n u knw it better.


 

fEVeR aGAiN!

I lose my voice

headache

fever

~tq~

dOnT bE jELoUS...

Talking to my self..
Owh..miss him so much. but in the same time mad bcoz of jelous. wat 2 do yea. come on sya. u hav made it this far. dont look back. just move forward. can i stand it? i really hope so. difficult when u really love him ryte? dont think to much sya. argh..it just a picture. okey sya? trust ur self. trust him. u knw he love u. u knw it better. hav faith on tat.
dont wait. remember he said? when u wait, u felt it longer compared when u just let it happen. if he is yours, he definitly will b yours! hav faith on ur self. i knw u had try ur best.i knw. n he knw it too.
i knw u love him. everyone can see it. but somehow, u hav to love ur self 2. myb u should let him do wat he should. myb u should just live ur life, n just be happy with it.
dont mad sya, dont jelous, be cool..chill...

ok.. she's ok now. hehe

TAG..

Someone tag me. so i just do it and anyone tat read this may tag ur self k? hehe

1. Apa benda penting dalam hidup anda?

- bende ryte? if MONEY r categorized as a things, i will answer it as the most important thing! haha

2. Benda terakhir yang anda beli guna duit anda?

- movie ticket..br je td

3. Di manakah tempat anda akan melangsungkan perkahwinan anda dan apakah temanya nanti?

- xpnh pk pown.

4. Adakah anda sedang bercinta sekarang?

-YUP!

5. Berapa lama anda akan mencintai kekasih anda?

- I will love him as long as my heart beating

6. Di mana anda selalu jumpa kekasih anda?

-xth nk jwb mcm mane.tp kami slalu hang out kat 'tmpt yg menenagkan'...huhu

7. Novel/majalah/buku terakhir dibeli?

- lame dh xbeli. rasenye last, hurm.... 10 Reasons Not To Fall in Love

8. Siapakah nama penuh anda?

-xpyh tnye la.

9. Antara mak dengan ayah yang mana anda lebih mesra?

-xth la..

10. Namakan orang yang anda betul2x nak jumpa dalam hidup anda?

- xde la. xpnh pk.

11. Adakah anda basuh baju anda sendiri?

- mesin kan ad... laen la klu rosak

12. Di manakah tempat anda betul2x nak pergi?

- i want to go to ROME!!

13. Pilih satu "peluk" atau "cium"?

-bak kate bf sy, sy tamak. so i want both!!

14. Beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag.

- she is nice. hope she will get wat she want in her life!

15. Lima benda yang disayangi dalam hidup anda.

- bende? bnde 2 things yeh?
hurm... honestly mcm xd la syg things sgt. biase2 je.

16. Lagu yang anda suka dan selalu dengar.

-bnyk sgt. one of it is, just the way u are

17. Bila tarikh lahir dan kt maner korang sambut tahun lepas?

-17th JUN. thn lepas xingt la.tp klu thn ni kat PD dgn bf tersayang!!

18. Rakan blogger yg anda nk tag?

- sape2 yg nk jwb. jwb la...xpkse

glaD tat wE r back 2 nORmaL

ingt x dlu d ckp. sy n my best fren name fida xrpt mcm dlu. tp arini sy happy. sy hang out dgn dia. we had a movie, had a beautiful lunch at full house. sy rase everything dh back 2 normal and im sooo glad! rase happy je sbb i got fida, mia, nana,vc and of coz my lovely hunny bie.mcm my life perfect.
thanks GOD!

tears fall down...

he always said tat i am the drama queen. he also said tat i am 'cengeng'. hehe...
n sometimes, sy rase dia saje je nk bwt saye nages. dia suke tgk sy nages kot.
tp sejak akhir2 ni dia mmg kerap bwt sy nages.sy jd malu... sbb t dia th sy syg
dia sgt2.
smlm dia blk..n mlm td sy dmm. smpi kne kjot ibu. myb sy pnt keje. yea...
sy mmg lemah n lembik. even skrg ni pown sy tgh baring smbil type.
ble sakit, sy akn ingt dia. rindu plak kat dia. ape la yg dia tgh bwt agak nye.
kple tgh berdenyut. tp lemas plak asyik tdo jer. anyway, kaki xley nk jln sgt.
ye r 12 jam berdiri,  n myb jugak sbb kasot 2 x brape bgus tok my foot.
xlrt la nk tulis lg,mcm nk muntah plak. t ble dh ok sy post lg.
to my hunny, i love u...n always remember u.

i NEED u

easy for u but hard for me. OH GOD, wat should i do now?? not only part of me missing. i missing my self now. am i will b ok? dont think so. i had nothing now. oh GOD, im shaking. i LOVE him more than i love my self. I NEED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i knw it impossible. he had his life. he cant ignore tat. bnyk hati yg dia kne jage.omg i cant stop crying.the most important person in my life is missing.

(T_T)

....crying....

its over

...... crying .......

berade d LUAR kwsn??

hey dear, where's on earth r u ha???
i been waiting for the whole day! tah pelusuk dunia mane la ni yg u g.
kate blk mlm, ni dh kesiangan still x blk lg. seriusly, im worried!!
plz back as soon as possible k?

he LOVE me!!

recently, rase mcm dia xsyg sy..tp mlm smlm kami jmp. n mlm 2, sy dpt rase dia sgt2 syg sy.

n sy sgt happy!!!

tq hun...

empty...

my heart stop beating

it just feel like there a empty space down there

( silent mode )

Expected too much?

im not really happy when im writing this post. btol la ckp owg, love ni sometimes can make us soo happy smpi rase dri berterbangan kat udare. tp in same time, love boley bwt kite rase x nk bercakap for the whole day or myb more sbb xd mood. n tat is wat happend to me now. dont feel like i want to talk with anyone. something inside my heart tat i cant xplain. so tat y im here. place tok curah kn ape yg ak rase.

he is here, tp ak xth knp ak rase dia jauh. rase mcm...ak tnggu dia dgn pnuh xcited,teruje ble dia nk blk cni. tp ble dia blk ak rase dia still jauh.seolah2 dia x blk pown.knp dgn ak eh?? am i expected too much frm him? ak rase x... see..ak dh start rase ssh ble jd owg num 2. pkre yg pling ak bnci is ble ak rase dia mcm dh mule bosan dgn relationship. r u bowing wit our relationship mr.E?

myb ak paranoid kot, sbb relationship ak dlu brhnti kat tgh jln sbb dh xd sparks dlm relationship 2..dh dim.. i try so hard tok relation ni xjd mcm yg pnh jd dlu.

ape ptt ak bwt eh? mr.E pnh ckp, wkt dia mule2 nk blk sane, dia ckp, 

" i need u"

"jgn tinggal kan i"

ni la yg bwt ak bertahan. bwt ak pk blk stiap kali ak mule rase yg bkn2. ak sgt syg dia. sgt2 syg dia.

tell me mr.E tat u still need me. tats all i want to hear frm u. the short sentence tat can make my heart beating again for u. yg akn bwt smue ketakutan i pergi. tell me E, tat u need me...tats all i want.

Nak tuuu...!!

cube teka ayat sape?? ni ayat aten.. baby kecik yg sgt sy syg! asl d iklan mknan je msty dia ckp, 'nk tuu..'.
lps ni kene ajar ckp, ' xnk la...' hehe.. ye r asl jmp iklan mkanan je nk, yg dasyat nye plak, dia th plak mane iklan mknan.. pndi btol si kecik ni..

baby kesayangan sy!!

he is HERE!

HEY2!! anyway, just to write to tell that mr.E is back! hehe...
just arrived last nyte. quite late but he made it! sooo happy n cant wait to c him!

i HATE waiting!

sminggu dh sy tnggu. n ble tbe arinye, dia xblk plak.eee.... GERAM nye! knp xblk...?? kate cuty seminggu. ni nk nages ni. u.....!!!! blk la cpt. i dh lame tnggu ni.. slalu kul 7 u dh smpi umah. ni xd pown. xblk la 2.
smpi ati, i tnggu u tau..cpt la blk. i RINDU u...

list of thingS to BUY~

haha..blom dpt pown ptptn lg, tp sy dh merancang tok menghabis kan duet trsbot! well org kate perancangan mesty ada. d bwh adalah list thingS to buy after i get my money :

1. kasot NIKE yg dh lame sy idam2 kn.. hah sgt cantik!!!

2. Printer yg dh lame nk beli, tp x beli2..

3. Ok, yg ni gler ckit, masih dlm pertimbangan, jangan sape2 yg terkejut ok? Camera Digital SLR, Nikon 

( D90 or D5000 )
hah! kan saye dh kate, jgn terkejut. tp yg ni sy btol2 nk. akak sy kate, nk kongsi duet beli yg ni. tp sy nk tnye pendapat mr.E dlu.. mesty dia mcm xkasi. mesty dia kate," u nk wat pe b?? "...tp ape pown, sy kne mintak pendapat mr.E dlu. sbb dia penasihat kewangan sy! hehehe..

4. ok yg ni typical pnye thingS which is, shopping some clothS! hehe = D

2 je yg saye nk. xbnyk kn??

mR. E....

i hav something to let u know..
here it is...

ur eyes, ur eyes make the stars look like they are not shining

i know, i know when i compliment u, u wont believe it,

and its so, it so sad when u dont see what i see,

n u want to know what?

when i see your face,there are not a things that i would changes,

cause u r amazing just the way u are!

and when u smile, the whole world stop and stare for a while,

cause boy u r amazing just the way u are!

~ WHy ~

today i felt like soo down. looking at my self. i got lot of  weakness compared to the goodness. n it make me hate my self. it make me feel like i dont deserve to get anything. n sometimes i mad at my self, i mad at the destiny..

y is it so hard to be me? y is it so hard in my life??

people always said tat, we cant get everything tat we want. yes i knw..but y i cant even get any part of it?! i hate my self. i really do.

short note for my lovely hunny bie...

i dont knw if u knw this well.. but deep in my heart saying, u r soo mean to me. u r such a great things tat ever happen 2 me. being with u make me realise how beautiful my life is.

this may not words tat can make disscribe how much i love u..but this may some words tat i want u to knw...

to my love,

- i dont think u realise how easily u u make me smile...

- u'll never understand how much i love u, and i'll never understand why..

- when i tell u tat i love u, i dont say it out of habit or make a conversation. i say it 2 remind u tat u r the best things tat ever happend to me

- n i admit it tat, i think of u every second of every day, u're my favourite subject to talk about, when i hug u i wish i could never let go,most of all my dream hav u in them, n i always get xcited when i see u again

with all those things i admitted tat I'M COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH U!!!

dH aBiSSS ExaM!!!

YEHAAA!!!!sy dh abis exam.... gembire nye. just had a dinner with my fren. we talking  n talking.. glad that we met today.
anyway 2morrow public holiday. is he coming back? i really hope tat he is coming back diz week. i need it so badly!! hunny bie, plz come back!!!

last paper --> LAW

td nye killer paper, really killing me. n now, just one paper left! LAW....
klu pk negative, paper td wat ak down..
tp klu pk positive, tinggal 1 je paper..pas2 cuty sem! saat yg ak tnggu2..
sbb cuty sem dia ad..wah..happy nye!
owg kate, kite yg tntukn mood kite. so ak xnk pk negative, ak nk pk positive je! which is there's only one paper left, hav 2 focus on it, n try the best! n then..cuty sem..yeyeyyy!!!! xsbr nk tnggu my hunny bee blk!
but now, kite stdy dlu k? muahhahaha!!