when the time he need 2 go~

it was a full of tears last nyte. i cried so hard, i cant even remember when is the last tyme i cried tat hard. im so sad, to let him go. yesterday was the last day i spend with him. the only guy in my heart. i knw it is not only hard 4 me, but i believe it hard to him too. i try 2 play cool last nyte, but when the tyme i hug him, my tears fall down. i dont want him go. i want him 2 stay wit me. i love him, tats all i knw. 2 let him go is the hardest part of my life. eventhou is not meant 4 ever, yet i still sad. i never be apart frm him. so is difficult to accept tat im going 2 be alone 4 a while. im scared without him. im thinking, wat im going 2 do, wat my life going 2 be without him by my side. i was touch when hu said, "if u need me, put ur hand on ur chest, listen 2 ur heart beat, bcoz tat is me,closed 2 u".so there is nothing 4 me 2 worried about. there is so many memories build by us, n every single chapter is very mean 2 me. when i saw his eyes, there is tears inside, i knw he want 2 cry, but he stand strong, he dont want me 2 c. but at tat moment im happy, knowing tat he love me. i knw he love me so much. he promise 2 call me everytime he free. promise 2 get back n c me every month.i knw he leave 4 a reason, to continue his stdy. n im always hope 4 the best 4 him. and i will wait no matter how long it take. hun.. i really miss u ryte now.. i feel like i want 2 cry.. it so hard 4 me.. i was wonder if u miss me 2..i was wonder if u thinking of me ryte now.. come back soon yea..coz im always waiting u.love u huuny bie~ XOXO